Chapter 25

 

“Shit.”  Buffy exhales as she jumps back too slow from the Bringer’s blade, it cutting her across the stomach. 

 

“DUCK!”  Faith yells as she launches herself into the air to knock down the Bringer, quickly twisting his head and breaking his neck as Buffy pops up from where she’d hit the ground to bury her sword in another Bringer. 

 

“Did they fucking multiply?”  Buffy wipes off her blade as she looks around at the thirteen or fourteen Bringers lying around the remnants of her old high school. 

 

“Not sure, but felt like they did.”  Faith finally stands, brushing herself off as she closes the distance between her and Buffy.  “How bad are ya’?”  Wishing that they would think to bring a flashlight with them, though slayer sight is good, the darkness of the night and the dark clothes with the blood doesn’t make it easy to decipher how badly she’s hurt.

 

Buffy winces as she reaches up to pull the shirt away from her wound, bending over slightly to look.  “Probably going to need stitches, but don’t think anything major was hit.”

 

“Let’s get back to the house.  We’ll draw straws for who gets to cause ya’ more pain when we get there.”  Faith snorts at the growls she gets from Buffy.  “If Russky said she ran into ten Bringers and got three of ‘em, and we knocked out another…”  Faith hesitates and counts the Bringers.  “Thirteen, that means they’re either fuckin’ gatherin’ here or he’s stepping up making ‘em.  We gotta make sure the house is protected.  They ain’t like vamps, they can just barrel their way in.”  Faith’s eyes widen as she makes the comment, it sinking in fully after she says it.

 

“FUCK!”  Buffy takes off running, Faith easily keeping pace with her. 

 

“I don’t think they’ll have that many of ‘em here, but they mighta been gathering for an attack.”  Faith tries to calm her own racing heart down with Buffy’s obvious frantic running pace.

 

“Better pray they haven’t gathered in force.  If they have, the house is pretty much defenseless.”  Buffy pants as she forces more air into her lungs as she pushes her legs to move faster.

 

“B, Tare can take care of herself.”  Faith tells the other slayer as she picks up her pace to stay even with Buffy. 

 

“Do you want to take that chance?  And there’s everyone else in the house to worry about!”  Buffy growls softly as she ignores the pain from her stomach wound and the stickiness of the blood soaking her shirt and jeans.

 

***

 

“TARA!!!”  Willow screams from the living room, quickly sending a blast of magic at the Bringer that had just crashed through the front window, sending him flying back out.

 

Tara hears the loud crash right before Willow screams her name, hurriedly standing up, the chair falling over backwards she darts out of the room.

 

Sasha grits her teeth as she pushes out of the bed, she and the blonde witch had actually talked for the last four hours.  Learning about the group, how Tara and Willow had been a couple for two years, and how recently Tara and Faith had come to be together.  Stumbling over to the closet, she yanks out a couple weapons before gritting her teeth and pushing the pain to the back of her mind as she hears the crashes coming from downstairs with yelling and screaming. 

 

Running down the stairs, she stares at the room in shambles, one of the potentials lying on the floor with blood slowly pooling around her.  Snarling angrily, her eyes dart towards Tara and Willow who are chanting as they hold hands and an invisible force pushes eight or so Bringers slowly out of the house as the two witches advance.  Yelling uncontrollably, she attacks the two Bringers that are on this side of the invisible blockade heading for the two witches, she quickly stabs one while slashing at the other with her stronger arm.  Swallowing as she notices the head falling from the one she’d swung at, she turns her gaze back on the one she has impaled on her sword.  Not knowing if she can get through whatever the witches have she takes a chance and drops the one sword and grabs the other Bringer with both hands, slinging the Bringer out the window with everything inside her smiling as he goes flying through with no problem before she glances back at the three potentials who are huddling in the corner.  “CHECK ON HER!!”  Sasha screams at them and points at the potential lying motionless on the floor as she snags the other sword before turning around and quickly running towards the door, opening it and darting out, the two short swords in her hands coming into motion.

 

***

 

“Faith, go… you’re faster…”  Buffy pants as the two slayers turn the corner the sound of a fight and movement around her house a dead giveaway that something’s happening. 

 

Faith looks from the house to Buffy and back, torn as she’s worried about Tara and the rest of the group, but also knowing that leaving Buffy coming by herself to finish the distance to the house could be an extremely stupid move.  “If somethin’ happened to you, they’d never forgive me.”

 

“And if Tara’s being hurt right now, you’ll never forgive yourself!  FUCKING GO!”  Buffy screams, digging deeper for more energy as she watches Faith finally growl deeply and take off like a shot down the sidewalk.  Silently praying that no one’s hurt, or at least seriously hurt Buffy concentrates on following as quickly as she can, feeling lightheaded from the blood loss, but too stubborn to let it get in her way.

 

***

 

Tara doesn’t know what’s happening, one minute she’s flying down the stairs a Bringer slashing at Lisa as she tries to get away from him and the next minute she and Willow are chanting, having pushed the majority of the Bringers out of the house while protecting the other potentials.  Now Tara looks at Willow as they release their hold on each other as the sounds of battle outside the house become less frantic.  Breathing a sigh of relief as she notices Faith seems to be okay even as her lover angrily slashes at whatever Bringer she can get close to, Tara spins around and moves towards Lisa as Willow comes back from the kitchen with the first aid kit.

 

“Is she…?”  Tara whispers as she kneels by Justine, the potential pressing against the wound to stop the bleeding.

 

“She’s alive… barely.”  Justine fights to keep from throwing up, the tackiness of the blood on her hands making her ill. 

 

Tara places her fingers against Lisa’s neck, closing her eyes as she tries to calm her own pounding heartbeat so she can make sure Lisa’s still alive.  After a few minutes, she sighs in relief as she finds the thready pulse.  “Call 911.”  She orders Willow softly as she pulls bandages from the first aid kit and quickly presses them against the wound as Justine moves her hands.  Tara spares a quick glance to Mandy and Tracy, sighing heavily at the two young potentials huddle together in the corner of the room.  “Justine, can you please see how they’re doing outside?”  Tara begs softly as she carefully uses her free hand to make sure there aren’t any other wounds on Lisa that need to be looked at while keeping the pressure against the cut with her right hand.

 

“I wonder how we’re going to explain this to the police.”  Willow whispers as she settles across from Lisa and gently brushes the young girl’s hair from her pale face. 

 

“Some gang breaking into the house.  It’s to the point that they’ll ask a few questions and that’ll be it.”  Tara admits quietly.

 

“Looks like the Bringers are dead.  Faith’s grabbing Sasha and helping her in while Buffy seems to be hurt but under her own power.”  Justine watches as Faith helps Sasha in the house.

 

“B’s got a good slice that’s gonna need to be cleaned and stitched.”  Faith looks intently at Tara, her eyes searching for any wounds on her lover. 

 

“Will she need a hospital?  We’ve already called 911.”  Tara whispers, doing her own inventory of her disheveled and bruised lover, happy when she doesn’t see anything really wrong with her.

 

“Staying down here.”  Sasha hisses softly to the dark-haired slayer when she starts to head them towards the stairs, ignoring the grunt coming from her.

 

“B?”  Faith questions as she settles Sasha gently in the chair with a quiet growl. 

 

“No hospital.”  Buffy frowns at the sight of Lisa and the amount of blood.  “SHIT!”  Buffy yells, slamming the door behind her. 

 

Tara frowns heavily as she sees the blood coating Buffy’s shirt and jeans even as the slayer seems to hunch over slightly, obviously in pain.  “Honey, take care of Buffy.”  Tara tilts her head as she hears the sirens approaching.  “Willow can you get the door?”

 

“Of course.”  Willow darts up and runs to the door.

 

Faith searches Tara’s eyes for a few minutes and nods her head.  “Come on, B.  Upstairs, shower to get the blood off of ya’ so I can see how bad you are.”

 

“I should…”  Buffy starts only to stop when Tara, Faith, Willow and even Sasha turn and glare at her.  “My fucking house and everyone’s telling me what to do.”

 

“You guys have to stay here.  It ain’t safe to go to the hospital, and we’re a little depleted with fighters.”  Faith looks at Tara, then darts a glance at Willow.  “Call the Council and tell ‘em what happened, they’ll probably take care of the hospital end of things.  Go shower now, B.  I’ll be up in a few.”  Turning her gaze on Sasha, she sighs heavily.  “You ain’t gonna fuckin’ heal by doin’ that shit, but thank you.  Things probably coulda been worse.”  She looks down at the dead, headless Bringer, before looking up in thanks at the slayer.  Reaching down she grabs the body and tosses it over her shoulder before quickly throwing it out the front door with the other dead Bringers before coming back in looking around until she finally finds his head.  “Too bad it ain’t Halloween.  We’d be set.”  Faith grumbles as she flips the head out the front window.  Sighing heavily she heads up the stairs with one more soft glance at her lover.

 

Tara smiles softly at Faith as she nods at her and trots up the stairs as the police and emergency people start coming in, taking over for her with Lisa while the policemen start asking questions, sighing heavily knowing it’s going to be a long night.

 

***

 

Sweeping the glass onto the dustpan Faith is holding, Tara sighs quietly as they work on cleaning and straightening the living room. 

 

“I’ll get the shop-vac and vacuum everythin’ good.  We’ll probably still find glass for a while, but…”  Faith shrugs as she stands, seeing the worn out look on her lover’s face.  Dumping the glass into the trashcan, she sets the dustpan down and steps over to Tara.  “Come here, babe.”  Faith whispers, wrapping her arms around Tara and holding her tenderly as Tara whimpers.

 

“They’re just kids, Faith.  What kind of sick world do we live in where mere children have to defend the world?  Fight the demons and evil without a choice?  Have family that abuses and hurts them?  When is it going to end?”  Tara finally breaks down, crying into her lover’s neck, clenching tightly to the back of her shirt as she holds onto her desperately. 

 

“Oh, babe.”  Faith whispers softly, holding her lover tightly as Tara’s body is racked with sobs.  Pressing her lips tightly to her head, Faith closes her eyes and gently rocks Tara back and forth.  As the sobs slow in intensity long moments later, Faith rubs her cheek against Tara’s head.  “Sometimes goin’ through all the shit, pain and heartache makes you really appreciate when the good happens.  You don’t take it for granted and maybe it teaches us to live life to the fullest.  There are probably people in this world that don’t know the happiness we’ve known for just days their whole lives.  And one of the reasons is, is because when we see it, we know it and we enjoy it to the fullest.”

 

Tara rubs her cheek against Faith’s shoulder as she thinks about what her lover’s saying, Faith having a very serious point.  “You actually had to explain it decently instead of doing your usual ‘you gotta wade through a lotta shit before gettin’ to the good stuff, babe.’?”  Tara snorts softly at the loud growl she gets from Faith. 

 

“Why is it that I love ya’ again?”  Faith relaxes and smiles softly at the laughter coming from her lover. 

 

Leaning back to look into warm brown eyes, Tara cups Faith’s face with her hands and brushes her lips tenderly over her lover’s.  “You do like to surprise me occasionally, don’t you?”

 

“Yeah.”  Faith whispers, capturing Tara’s bottom lip between hers and suckles gently.  “Why don’t you wake up sleepin’ beauty and see if you can’t drag her ass up the stairs while I vacuum.”  Faith finally suggests, her eyes darting to the lightly snoring Russian in the chair.  “B’s crashed in the bed upstairs, so you might hafta shove her aside before tossin’ this one in beside her.”

 

“I won’t be tossing her anywhere.”  Tara looks at her lover like she’s crazy before her eyes dart back to the tall Russian.  “Buffy I can maneuver, but if this one doesn’t move under her own steam, you’ll have to help.  Plus, what will Buffy say when she wakes up beside her?”

 

Faith snorts quietly and shrugs.  “Who cares?  Maybe she’ll decide to see how the other side lives for a while.”

 

“Faith!”  Tara hisses, smacking her lover on the shoulder.  “Like Buffy is interested in women.”  Tara shakes her head disbelievingly at her lover as she steps over towards the black haired slayer.

 

“You might be surprised.”  Faith comments softly under her breath as she heads out of the living room towards the garage to get the shop-vac. 

 

“Wake up, Sasha.  You’ll stiffen up if you continue to sleep in the chair.”  Tara gently shakes Sasha’s shoulder, smiling gently at the slayer that had slept through Faith hammering the piece of plywood over the busted window, Willow having urged the potentials up the stairs to sleep with her in her room after helping to hold the plywood in place. 

 

“What?”  Sasha blinks as she jerks awake, groaning as her ribs protest.  “Where is everyone?”  She finally looks around the empty room, noticing that it had been picked up. 

 

“Asleep in their beds or crashed on the floor upstairs.  You’re going to have a bedmate tonight, hope you don’t mind.”  Tara grins crookedly at the slayer, finally laughing softly at the confused look crossing her face as she stares at her.

 

“Faith will kick my ass if we sleep together.”  Sasha frowns, not understanding. 

 

Laughing at the comment, Tara shakes her head and helps her to stand.  “She wouldn’t leave it at kicking your ass, she’d probably tear you apart with her bare hands.  But no, we aren’t sharing a bed, Buffy’s in the bed already crashed.  Between the blood loss and Faith slipping a handful of pain pills into her drink she’s out like a light.”

 

“Then I will sleep down here.  Let her have her bed, she is hurt.”  Sasha stops at the stairs, working on shifting around when she’s stopped by Tara growling at her. 

 

“You’re almost six feet tall, your ribs are busted and that couch would make you stiffen to the point of being in unbelievable pain come tomorrow.  Buffy’s bed is big enough for two people, and if she bitches, she can bitch at me.  So no arguing with the Wiccan.”  Tara helps Sasha keep her balance as they work their way slowly up the stairs, smiling at the soft growl coming from the slayer, silently wondering if it’s something all slayers do.  Of course, she’s noticed that she’s started growling back more and more recently. 

 

“Do you know if she is a…”  Sasha scratches her head as they take a break at the landing.  When she sees Tara looking at her questioningly, she shrugs and tries.  “Hugger?”

 

“Cuddler?  Snuggler?”  Tara grins crookedly as Sasha furrows her brows but nods.  “I honestly don’t know Buffy’s sleeping habits.  Would it bother you if she is?”

 

“Nyet.  I just do not want to wake up in more pieces than I go to sleep in.”  Sasha curls her lip up in a teasing smile as Tara rolls her eyes at her.  “I can make it from here, thank you.” 

 

“You’re going to fit in real well around here.”  Tara grumbles, narrowing her eyes on the woman before chuckling as Sasha grins wickedly at her before she carefully steps up the last couple steps and makes her way down the hallway.  “Damn slayers.  I think they’re all stubborn and wicked.”  Tara turns around and trots down the stairs, glaring at Faith as her lover chuckles as she finally flips on the shop-vac.  “Especially you.”  Tara glares at Faith before winking at her and heading to the kitchen to call the hospital to see how Lisa is doing, the last they’d heard she was in critical but stable condition. 

 

***

 

Chapter 26

 

“Visit Angel in LA, Xander.  Stay there away from the hell that is going on here.  It’s become a zoo the last couple weeks, ever since the Bringers have started showing up in force, and there’s some new vampire that’s the mother of all vampires to kill.  Most of the town is bugging out, and honestly the rate it’s going I have a feeling everything will be taken care of by Christmas.”  Buffy paces back and forth, frowning.  “No!  I don’t want to chance you and Anya being hurt!  I know about Anya, Xander.”  Buffy hisses quietly into the phone as she strides away from the rest of the group and around the front of the house.  “She’s worried about what’s happening here and she told me she’s pregnant.  I’m not going to have something happen to either one of you because of my calling.  So stay away and stay safe.  If I could pack up everyone here and send them off, I would!  Lisa was just released from the hospital, and Giles is supposed to be flying in from England sometime in the next week to help.”  Buffy hesitates for a moment before continuing softly.  “There’s another slayer here also, Xander.  She arrived a couple weeks ago and isn’t at full power yet, but she’s getting stronger and faster every day.”  Buffy sighs as she listens to Xander going off about it for a few minutes before he finally calms down.  “When Glory was here, Xander.  I guess it was enough to partially activate her but not fully.  It’s kind of like she’s expanding her powers as she works with me and Faith.  I don’t understand it and I don’t want to try and understand it.  It just is.  Please, this once, do as I ask, Xan.  Please protect you, your wife and your unborn child.  I love you, too.”  Buffy smiles as she disconnects the phone, sighing heavily as she steps down the concrete steps and sits down. 

 

Listening to the sounds coming from around the house smiling as she hears Faith yelling at the potentials that ‘she’d be surprised if they could kill a flea with those puny hits’, Buffy tilts her head as she catches movement out of the corner of her eye she watches as Sasha hesitates for a moment before finally striding towards her around the corner of the house. 

 

“Are you okay?”  Sasha stops a few feet from the small slayer, searching hazel eyes. 

 

“I will be.”  Buffy shrugs and smiles at the woman as she stands, brushing her jeans off.  “Did you need something, Sasha?”

 

“Tara wishes to go to the Magic Box and pick up some more supplies for spells she is trying.  Rogue will not let her go unless one of us is with her.  I would like to go.  I have been constrained here for the last weeks healing and would like to stretch my legs.”  Sasha explains with a few hesitations over a couple words. 

 

Buffy chuckles, knowing Sasha is trying to learn some of the ‘slang’ that they use but it’s still causing the Russian some problems.  “Faith said it was okay for you to go with her?”  As Sasha grins and nods her head, Buffy laughs.  “I won’t argue, then.  Let Tara know she gets you as a babysitter today.  Make sure you take at least a sword and a couple knives.  It’s daylight, but Bringers don’t need the dark to move around, and vampires can be in the shadows, so be on your toes.” 

 

“Yes, mom!”  Sasha stands at attention and snaps off a quick salute at Buffy before heading up the steps to enter the house, laughing at the look she receives from the small slayer.

 

“I’m not your mother, you damn Russian!  Kids today, no respect for their elders.”  Buffy growls as she heads towards the back yard.

 

“Elder by two years, ma petite.  And I know you are not my mother, but you get angry with me when I say things like that.  I cannot resist.”  Sasha calls out softly as she enters the house smiling at the squeak she hears coming from the blonde slayer. 

 

“Your ‘ma petite’?”  Buffy spins around to look at the empty porch in shock.  “When did I become ‘her’ little anything?”  Buffy whispers softly.  Having to admit that the tall woman actually fit in quite well with their group, even taking Faith’s ribbing her with ‘proper’ English, height and being a ‘Russky’.  Sasha having taken it all in stride and even giving back as good as she got.  Having to admit, as she has gotten to know the woman better over the last few weeks, she was attracted to her.  Hell, who wouldn’t be?  She’s just an inch shy of six feet tall, long black hair that fell down to her shoulder blades, ice blue eyes that turned a steel gray when she was upset…  “Fuck.”  Buffy groans as she gets sidetracked thinking about the woman again, stomping towards the back yard to take her frustrations out with some hand to hand combat with Faith, though she’d rather get her frustrations out in a totally different way and with the other slayer.  But the confusion about her feelings for the woman and the fact that Sasha hadn’t flirted with her that she could tell tying her hands somewhat. 

 

Faith quirks an eyebrow as Buffy comes storming into the back yard, this not being the first time the other slayer had looked for physical combat in the last week to fight whatever demons she’s dealing with.  “Okay, children.  Sit your asses down against the fence over there and watch what we do.  Remember… we’ll be pullin’ our punches to a certain degree and probably slowin’ things down a bit so you can see.  Vampires and other demons will be movin’ even faster.  So keep that in mind while watchin’ us!”

 

Tara sticks her head out the door just as Faith finishes her little speech.  Sighing quietly as she looks at her lover before her eyes land on Buffy.  Groaning at the look of frustration on Buffy’s face, she shakes her head.  “I want to pick up some groceries while we’re out, so don’t get worried.”  Tara holds up the large backpack and grins crookedly at Faith as her lover winks at her.  “And don’t hurt each other too bad this time, please.”

 

“We’ll try not to, babe.”  Faith jogs over and sneaks in a quick, hard kiss.  “She’s becomin’ like a fuckin’ balloon that’s been filled with too much air.  She’s either gonna’ explode or someone is gonna need to let the air outta her.”  Faith whispers extremely softly in her lover’s ear.  “You know as well as I do, who’s causin’ it.  Can ya’ maybe talk about things?”

 

Tara drops her chin down to her chest before finally looking back up into worried brown eyes.  “I’ll talk.  Though I don’t think this is something we should get in the middle of, Faith.”

 

“I know, babe.  But even if it’s just a friendly little fuck between ‘em, that would probably help.”  Faith tilts her head to where Buffy’s slamming her unprotected fists into the four foot thick board she’d buried three feet in the ground a few days ago, wincing as she hears the meaty ‘thwack’ when Buffy’s fists land.

 

“Go, before she hurts herself.”  Tara orders, nodding her acceptance of playing ‘go between’.  “I love you, Faith.”

 

“Love you, too, babe.”  Faith grins at Tara before spinning around and trotting towards Buffy.

 

Tara groans and goes through the kitchen, grabbing up the list of items she needs to pick up at the Magic Box, along with the things she thinks might help in the future.  Chuckling as Sasha comes pounding down the stairs with two scabbards criss-crossed across her chest with the swords across her back and different weapons tucked around her.  “Great, if you had a sawed off shotgun, I would think we’re in the movie Mad Max.”

 

Sasha frowns and looks questioningly at Tara.  “I am not familiar with that movie.”

 

“We’ll pick it up and the sequels.  It’ll be good for a laugh.”  Tara shakes her head at the woman.  “I’m just glad that it seems like the majority of the people here in Sunnydale have decided to leave.”

 

“I would not have the weapons on me like this, if the town was still filled.  But Rogue and Petite say that most normal people are gone, except for a few… stragglers?”  Sasha hesitates over the word and tilts her head as they step out of the house and start to walk down the front walkway. 

 

“That’s right.  And while we’re out, I want to pack this thing full of meat for the pigs back at the house.”  Tara points to the empty backpack she has slung over her shoulder. 

 

“Food is a good thing.  Makes us strong and powerful.”  Sasha sticks out her arm and curls it so her muscle pops out, poking it with her other finger.  “See!  Much bigger and stronger than it was just two weeks ago!”  As Tara giggles, Sasha holds back the grin wanting to cross her face.  Having to admit that she likes the blonde witch that usually was calm and quiet doing what needed to be done, but would come out like a lion whenever something happened.  “If we got more weights for me to lift, I could work on my pec’s.”  Sasha shifts so she’s walking backwards in front of Tara and mugs for the witch, doing a ‘muscleman’s’ pose for her, flexing her ‘pec’ muscles, which make her breasts flex.

 

“Stop it!”  Tara busts out laughing this time, seeing the gleam of devilment in the Russian’s eyes.  Smacking her on the shoulder she shakes her head.  “Are you normal for most Russians, Sasha?  I hate to say it, but in our country Russians are usually portrayed as very serious without a sense of humor.”

 

Sasha tilts her head and thinks about it.  “I do not really know.  I mean, yes, there were people that I knew that like to joke like me.  And there are other people that are very serious.  Maybe it is just a mix like I have found there to be here in the United States?”

 

“That would make sense.”  Tara admits, nodding her head in agreement.  “Do you mind if I ask you a few personal questions?”  Tara hesitantly questions, darting a quick look at the tall woman who nods her head at her.  “I’m assuming since you’ve never said anything or given us any strange looks, that you don’t have a problem with me and Faith being a couple.”

 

“Nyet.  You are light to her darkness.  She needs you to balance her.  Without the light, she would be lost.”  Sasha shrugs at the shocked look Tara sends her way.  “Do you not see it?  You bring light to the Rogue Slayer’s world.  You show and teach her how to love.  That is a precious thing, da?”

 

“I… I never thought of it that way.”  Tara whispers shocked.  Blinking as she thinks about the Russian’s words. 

 

“Love is good, even if it is but a fleeting moment in time, Tara Maclay.  And you love with your whole self.  Faith is a very lucky woman, and Willow was very stupid and foolish to have lost that love.  It will take many years for her to come to terms with what she has done.  It is starting to… sink in, but it will still take time.”  Sasha tucks her hands in her jean pockets. 

 

“Are you clairvoyant, Sasha?”  Tara looks seriously at the tall woman, seeing the confusion coming across Sasha’s face Tara smiles softly at her.  “Are you able to see or have a sense for seeing things in the future?  A sixth sense?”

“Nyet.  I see what is in here.”  Sasha taps herself on the chest above her heart.  “Mikhael taught me to see past the…”  She waves a hand around her face as she thinks of the words.  “Outer casing?”

 

“That’ll work.”  Tara chuckles as Sasha grins at her.  “That’s a good thing, to be able to see a person’s true self.”

 

“Da, it is.  It can also be a curse, Tara.”  Sasha admits sadly.  “To see that someone wants something, but is afraid of it at the same time… makes things difficult.”

 

Tara purses her lips as she looks at the woman as they continue towards the Magic Box.  Taking a chance, she says one word softly.  “Buffy?”

 

Sasha darts a quick look at Tara before slowly nodding her head.  “One minute I feel like she wants to reach out to me, the next it is like she is scared of me.  I am confused.  I like her.  Hell, my Watcher told me stories about her while I was training and learning my duties as a slayer.  He said one of her greatest gifts was not herself, but the people that surrounded her.  I did not understand until I came here and learned the group here.  You help to… center her.  You keep her fighting because you show her what it is to love and have family and friends.  Ultimately, she is but a young woman that fights because she wants to protect her family.” 

 

“I’m going to tell you this in strictest confidences, Sasha.  So please think before you act or don’t act on what I’m about to tell you.”  Tara stops at the front door to the Magic Box, digging her keys out to unlock the door. 

 

“I will.”  Sasha promises, pressing her hand over her heart in all honesty to the blonde witch while watching a sad smile cross Tara’s face. 

 

“I know you’re somewhat aware of Buffy’s life as a slayer.  But I’m not sure how much you know about her personal life.”  Tara locks the door behind them as she drops the backpack by the door.  “She dated when she was younger, but her first serious relationship was with Angel.”

 

“The great Angelus that lost his soul when they made love.  I am aware of the story.”  Sasha frowns heavily at the thought.

 

“Yes, but whether or not you are aware… Buffy was a virgin and it was her seventeenth birthday when it happened.”  Tara explains softly, watching the shock and surprise come across Sasha’s face.  “Yeah, pretty shitty.  Anyway, that was her first relationship.  It took her over a year before she decided to try again with this asshole named Parker.”  Tara growls herself as she remembers Willow telling her about Parker when they were together.  Pulling her list out of her pocket, she gather’s the items they need while explaining about him then Riley.  Hesitating for a few minutes after explaining the soldier, she looks up at the ceiling debating with her self before deciding if Buffy hates her, she can hate her.  “When Willow brought Buffy back four months after her dying for the second time, she was disconnected from everyone.  She had been in heaven and ripped from being warm, safe and content, finally getting her just rewards to being brought back here to earth and the Hellmouth that was being burned by a demon biker gang doing their best to destroy the whole town.”

 

Sasha frowns even heavier, hearing a tone of pain and possibly a note of anger rising in the witch’s tones. 

 

“She didn’t feel anything.  She went out on patrols, because she was supposed to.  She took care of Dawn, because she was supposed to.  She acted like everything was fine and okay, even though she was dead inside.  She didn’t love, she didn’t hate… she was just going through the motions.”  Tara unconsciously reaches up to wipe the tears from her face that were falling.  “None of us knew… or none of us chose to see what she was going through.  None of her friends, at least.  But Spike saw.”  Tara whispers, her eyes dropping to the floor.  Knowing that Sasha will know who the vampire is as he’d been mentioned and talked about previously, plus whatever her Watcher might have told her about the vampire.

 

Sasha unconsciously bristles at the witch’s words, her eyes narrowing on Tara.  “Tara, if you do not wish…”

 

“No.  I need to finish this.  I just pray that Buffy will forgive me one day for telling you, because this should be something she should explain.”  Tara takes a deep cleansing breath as she raises her eyes to make contact with pale blue eyes.  “He saw that she was disconnected, that she didn’t care.  So he decided to work on bringing her into his world, his darkness.  She told me once that was the only time she felt, was when they fought and…”  Tara clenches her jaw before plunging forward.  “And had sex.  He brought her hatred and anger at being brought back from heaven to the surface and used her.  And because he said she came back wrong because he could hit her, she believed him and thought she didn’t deserve any better.  To this day, I don’t know why he didn’t try to turn her.  He could have, very easily.  The only thing that I can think of is that if he had, Willow would have probably flayed him alive before leaving him staked to the ground to meet the sunrise.” 

 

Sasha grinds her teeth at the thought of the small woman she’s come to know being someone that didn’t care and being barely alive.  The spark she sees glittering in the hazel eyes being gone something she has a hard time imagining, but from Tara’s looks and words, she knows that it had been. 

 

Tara continues and explains how Buffy had come to her to research the spell Willow had used to bring her back, and the subsequent discussion, how Buffy had broken down in her lap admitting everything that had happened between the slayer and Spike.  Taking a few minutes to get her head around what she’s about ready to tell Sasha, she tucks all the ingredients into a bag and sighs heavily as she motions Sasha that they needed to leave the Magic Box. 

 

Sasha bends over to scoop up the backpack as she steps out of the Magic Box as she looks around, waiting for Tara to lock the store back up.  “Did you kill the bastard?”

 

Tara jerks her head around to look at the woman, seeing the anger practically jumping from the blue eyes.  “Not right then, which I wish I had.  It was a little while later after he tried to rape…”  Tara spits the word out, her own eyes reacting to her anger.  “Her after she’d been hurt fighting some other vampires earlier that night.  She was able to fight him off, but not without suffering some bruising and shaking her up badly.  I had taken her sister out and we were late getting back.  I put Dawn to bed when I felt the pain coming from Buffy.  I helped her get cleaned up, used some muscle relaxing salves on her back from her earlier run-in with a headstone and helped her to fall asleep.”

 

“Then you went and killed the bastard.”  Sasha clenches her hands around the handles of the knives she has tucked away.

 

“I didn’t just kill him, Sasha.  The peroxided bastard was begging me to end his undead life by the time I was finished with him.  And I can’t tell you the hell I caught from both Buffy and Faith later on when they found out I had removed his chip before fighting him.”  Tara rolls her eyes as she hears a loud growl coming from Sasha.  “NOT YOU TOO!”  Tara smacks the slayer on the shoulder.  “I have heard enough from everyone else about what I did, I’m not taking it from you, too!”

 

“Dumb, foolish witch!”  Sasha huffs as she glares at Tara for a few minutes to let her know that she wasn’t happy about what she did, even if she didn’t know her then.  Slowly the anger is replaced by a small smile that slowly grows bigger.  “This is why you have us slayer’s quaking in our boots!  You wipe out a master vampire with no problem.  Us puny slayers are of no consequence to you.”

 

“Shut up, Sasha.”  Tara growls playfully at the woman before chuckling.  “Anyway, that has been the whole sordid love life of Buffy.  Add all that together with the fact that she’s never been attracted…  Well, Faith said she was attracted to another female but wouldn’t tell me who it was, and Buffy obviously never acted on that attraction before…  Anyway!  She’s never been with a woman before it makes her gun shy and afraid.  Her love life has been shit and add onto that fact that she’s finding herself attracted to you…”

 

“I will not lose my soul.”  Sasha points out softly.  “I am not a vampire, either.  I am a soldier of a sort, just like she is.  I know that it is a full-time job, not something that we can hang up our stakes at five o’clock and go home.”

 

Tara chuckles softly at hearing her words come back to her from the tall Russian when she was describing the way Riley looked at Buffy’s being the slayer. 

 

“I like her.  How can I not?  She is like a little munchkin that I would like to gather up and protect.  I do not know if I love her, but I am attracted to her.  Would that be enough for her?  To know that I do find her attractive and would like to know her better in whatever way she is willing to be known?”  Sasha hesitantly questions, her eyebrows furrowed in thought as they make their way to the grocery store, keeping her eyes moving and her senses open to what’s happening around her while thinking and talking with Tara.

 

“I honestly can’t answer that, Sasha.  But I know someone that can.”  Tara smiles softly at the tall Russian as Sasha looks at her and slowly nods. 

 

“She is attracted to me, da?”  Sasha wants to re-confirm what she knows in her heart is true.

 

“Yes, I’m pretty darn sure she’s attracted to you, Sasha.”  Tara grins crookedly as she thinks about the way Buffy had been acting lately, before a remembered conversation with Buffy floats into her mind, making her laugh loudly.  Seeing the confusion on Sasha’s face at her sudden burst of laughter, Tara waves her hand around as it takes her a few minutes to get control. 

 

“You are not losing your mind, are you?”  Sasha frowns in worry at the witch, not understanding her sudden outburst.

 

“Been there, done that, don’t plan on doing it again.”  Tara finally pants out between chuckles.  “I dare you… I absolutely, positively dare you to grab Buffy and toss her onto the bed, literally pouncing on top of her and tell her that you were told this is the best way to get what the both of you want… at least that’s what you were told by a very good friend.  Then I want you to kiss her until she can’t think straight.”

 

Sasha stops and stares in shock at the blonde, reaching out to gently grasp her arm, sighing in relief that she was solid. 

 

Tara giggles at the slayer’s actions.  “Though the First has been conspicuously absent, I’m not him, Sasha.  Trust me on this, you’ll either both get what you want, or Buffy will be coming after me and kicking my ass.  She won’t blame you, I promise.  Of course you might want to keep track of where her arms and legs are when you do that, just to make sure she doesn’t strike out automatically at being manhandled.”  Tara warns seriously.

 

“I thought that maybe you were already tired of me, and was wanting another slayer to be called in my place.”  Sasha sighs in relief, realizing that’s not the case, before her eyes start to gleam with mischief as she thinks about what the witch had said.  “She gave you similar advice, da?”

 

“A little cruder than what I said to you, but yes, pretty much.”  Tara laughs as the gleam becomes brighter.  “It was while Faith and I were dancing around each other when she came here from jail.”

 

“We will see what happens.”  Sasha agrees, grinning from ear to ear at the thought.  “Let us get food, then get back to the house before they send out search parties for us.”  Sasha urges Tara into the grocery store after yanking the door open, the lock breaking easily under her slayer strength. 

 

Tara’s eyes widen, not putting it past Faith or Buffy either one to make everyone come and look for them.  Frowning as Sasha grabs a cart.

 

“We can take more food in this, da?  Who is to stop us from taking it to the house?  We can bring it back in a couple days when we need to come here again.”  Sasha shrugs as Tara laughs.

 

“You’re pretty smart for a slayer, Sasha.”  Tara jibes playfully as she grabs another cart.  “We’ll put foodstuffs in that one, and I’ll throw soaps, shampoos, toilet paper and that type of stuff in this one.  Let’s do some shopping.”

 

Sasha lets out a quiet yell as the two women run, pushing the carts ahead of them as they jockey for position in the aisles beside each other as they start working on filling up the carts.

 

***

 

Chapter 27

 

“Damn it.”  Faith tosses the useless cell phone onto the coffee table, growling loudly then smirking as the potentials that had been clamoring to watch a movie dart her a scared look and disappear up the stairs to congregate in the master bedroom.

 

Buffy chuckles as she comes in, tossing a Gatorade at Faith before plopping down on the couch beside the slayer.  “Scare them off?”

 

“Yeah.  Damn cell phones aren’t fuckin’ workin’ no more.  Actually kinda surprised we still got power.”  Faith admits, knowing that the town technically was a ghost town at this point. 

 

“So no contacting Tara to ask her to get you your sweet tooth fix?”  Buffy smirks at the slayer as she smacks her hard on the leg.

 

“I figured while she was there, she could look and see if they had any of those peanut butter crème wafers.”  Faith shrugs at the admittance.  “It’s her damn fault I’m addicted to the things.”

 

“She might pick some up.”  Buffy leans back and closes her eyes as she rests her head on the back of the couch as she relaxes. 

 

“Doubt it, she was just plannin’ on packin’ as much meat as she could in the backpack.”  Faith runs a hand through her hair as she leans forward, resting her elbows on her knees and playing with the half drank bottle of Gatorade.  “Why ain’t ya’ jumped on the Russky, B?”  Faith finally bluntly asks, tilting her head to look behind her at the blonde slayer.

 

“Shit, Faith!”  Buffy jerks forward as her eyes glare at the other slayer. 

 

“Oh, fuck that shit, B.  You’re attracted to her, and you got that cute little Barbie-doll thing goin’ for ya’, so she’s probably interested in ya’.  It ain’t gotta be your next great big love or nothin’, but would it be so wrong to find some happiness together?  And get rid of some of that fuckin’ tension ya’ got buildin’ up in ya’?”  Faith glares back at Buffy.  “Don’t think I ain’t noticed the last week that you’ve been goin’ about fuckin’ nuts!  I ain’t blind, and I know ya’ better than some of these other kids.  I remember what you were like with the whole sexual frustration thing when Fang came back from Hell.  So don’t try to fuckin’ hide it.” 

 

“Faith, I am not discussing this with you.”  Buffy growls angrily at the slayer as she stands and paces back and forth in the living room. 

 

“Fine.  Discuss it with Russky.”  Faith shakes her head and relaxes back into the couch as she watches Buffy pace.  “What’s the worse that’ll happen, B?  She tell ya’ she ain’t interested?  Fuck!  Go for it, B.  Don’t dissect it to death and don’t compare it to every other fuckin’ relationship you’ve had.  You’re attracted to her, act on it.”  Faith finally stands and strides out the front door.  Having the urge to take the other slayer and shake her until she gets that damn stick out of her ass.

 

Buffy glares at the door Faith had disappeared out of.  “It isn’t that simple, Faith.”  Buffy rolls her eyes as she hears Faith growling something along the lines of ‘it’s what ya’ make it’. 

 

***

 

Faith strides back and forth in front of the house wondering, not for the first time, why she quit smoking while she was in jail, the urge to chain-smoke about four packs of cigarettes working its way through her.  Stopping as she hears the clang of metal and laughter, she spins around and looks down the sidewalk, before turning her gaze to the road.  “Fuck me.”  Faith starts to laugh at the sight coming towards her.  “B!  GET YOUR SCRAWNY ASS OUT HERE!!”

 

Buffy trots out of the house, hearing the laughter in the slayer’s voice, so not worried that they’re under attack, but confused nonetheless.  Stopping beside Faith, she tilts her head and groans quietly.  “What are they doing?”

 

“Looks like they did some serious shoppin’, is what it looks like.”  Faith chortles at the sight of Tara obviously standing on the bottom rung of one of the carts, holding on while laughing her ass off as Sasha runs at a pretty good clip, pulling the carts behind her, the carts roped together some how to keep them from going everywhere, or maybe her lover’s expending a bit of magical energy to keep them from making an escape.  As they draw closer, Faith chuckles at the sight of a couple long bars tied around the outsides and between the carts to keep them uniform while the rope keeps everything tied tightly together so they don’t come loose.

 

Sasha starts slowing down as she pants between her laughter, unhooking her jerry-rigged pulling vest and turning around to slow the carts down as Faith and Buffy come jogging over to them.  “We picked up a few extra items at the store.”

 

“Whose idea was this?”  Buffy laughs at the sight even as they work together to pull the carts up by the front steps.

 

“Don’t look at me.”  Tara raises her hands and shakes her head.  “I was just thinking about stocking up on hamburger meat and hot dogs, and the like.  That one over there grabbed a cart and said we might as well push the cart back here.  From there it kind of snowballed.” 

 

Faith chuckles at the six carts filled with just about everything imaginable food and necessity wise, even a large cooler is strapped to the front of the carts.  “I assume whatever we can’t fit in the fridge is gonna find a home in the cooler?” 

 

“Actually, I was thinking if we cooked up a lot of food, we could put it in the cooler with a couple bags of ice, using it up first as people get hungry.”  Tara shrugs at the thought.  “We wiped the store out of all the hamburger meat and patties they had.  We have one cart filled with nothing but bread products.”

 

“And we stocked up on peanut butter thingys…”  Sasha trails off as she digs through one of the carts and pulls the peanut butter wafers out, snorting as Faith snatches it out of her hand and tears into it.  “Yes, Tara mentioned you have an… unhealthy obsession with these things.  I admit they are quite good.”  Sasha pulls out a half eaten container of them and starts to eat it, smirking as Faith growls at her.  Offering the bag to Buffy, Sasha laughs as Buffy sticks her tongue out at Faith and accepts the food from her. 

 

“You’re being all greedy, at least Sasha doesn’t mind sharing.”  Buffy pops a piece in her mouth and chews before working on untying the cooler, glad they only put ice in it as Faith grabs the other end and they finish untying it and setting it on the porch.  “We can take this around back, drag the grill out and start cooking hamburgers later.”

 

Tara jogs up the steps and opens the door, propping the screen door open.  “Everyone down here and help us carry the groceries and items in the house!!”

 

Faith smirks at her lover yelling at the rest of the group, knowing Willow was hiding in the basement away from everyone else as she does research, since her bedroom had more or less been taken over by the potentials. 

 

“You’re a bad influence on her.”  Buffy points at Faith before grabbing as many bags as she can to carry in the house.

 

“Yeah, right.  I remember her yellin’ at you and chasing you with a knife or somethin’ when I first came here for dinner.”  Faith points out grabbing a bunch of bags and following the blonde slayer. 

 

“Cobbler!  Hey, did you…”  Buffy grins hugely as Tara rolls her eyes at her but nods.  “YES!!”

 

“And she has nerve to talk about my fuckin’ sweet tooth.”  Faith grumbles, setting the items down on the counters.  As Tara sets a couple bags down besides hers, she wraps her arms around her lover’s waist.  “Let us carry this shit in, you and Russky picked everything up.  If ya’ wanna put away the cold stuff, the rest of us can work on putting everythin’ else up while you two chill in the livin’ room or somethin’.” 

 

“Only if I get a kiss first.”  Tara grins crookedly as Faith’s eyes light up, the two women ignoring the sniggers and groans coming from the rest of the group as they work their way in and out of the kitchen. 

 

“All ya’ want.”  Faith captures Tara’s lips in a slow, tender, exploring kiss, moaning as Tara nips softly on the tip of her tongue as she slowly retracts it to end the kiss.  “Get outta here before I drag your ass to somewhere quiet.”  Faith growls softly in Tara’s ear, letting her hands trail down Tara’s back to cup and squeeze her ass.

 

Tara hesitates, and grins wickedly at Faith when she growls loudly at her, winking and finally leaving the room chuckling.

 

“Damn woman.”  Faith takes a deep breath and shakes her head.  Starting to look quickly through the bags, she sorts the canned goods, staples, munchies, cold items and starts to put away the cold items.

 

Buffy brings in the last of the bags and shoos the couple potentials out.  “Go play in the street or something.”  Buffy orders after almost tripping over one of them, growling at the youngster. 

 

Faith snorts.  “It ain’t got the same threat behind it without people driving up and down the road, B.”

 

“Maybe not, but they get the idea.”  Buffy settles on the floor as Faith starts handing her bags with canned goods in them.  “They stopped at the video store and picked up a bunch of DVD’s also.  Tara was muttering something about Sasha being deprived by not seeing them.”

 

“Oh, God.  Who knows what the witch picked up.”  Faith groans loudly as she starts putting away items in the upper cabinets, sniggering quietly as they are full to almost overflowing. 

 

“Well, I know Mel Gibson has to be in at least two of them, because Tara and Sasha were discussing the ‘hotness’ factor of a younger Mel Gibson compared to an older version and she had two movies in her hand while she was talking about it.”  Buffy grins at the loud growl that escapes Faith’s throat.  “Then she admitted that she wasn’t a very good person to ask, since she was more into the women than she is guys…”  Waiting until Faith nods and relaxes, Buffy finally continues a few moments later.  “But then she said if she wanted to discuss Angelina Jolie, Jennifer Garner, Alyssa Milano, Salma Hayek…”  Buffy falls against the cabinets and laughs uncontrollably as Faith yells Tara’s name and takes off running towards the living room.  “Sucker.”  Buffy snorts, reaching up to grab one of the packages of the peanut butter crème wafers Faith had been protecting to probably hide, and opens them to munch on while listening to the conversation happening in the living room.

 

***

 

“We gonna take the kiddies out in full force tonight?  We got Tara and Willow’s magic along with three slayers to protect the babies.”  Faith questions as she flips the burgers as Buffy sets down another huge platter with hamburger patties that Tara and a couple other girls are throwing together to be grilled. 

 

“I think it would be best to stay together as much as possible just in case.  I would have argued about Tara and Sasha going out by themselves today, but Tara can take care of herself to a certain degree and with Sasha being a slayer…”  Buffy shrugs as she watches Faith start piling the hamburgers onto a clean platter before putting more on the grill.   

 

“Yeah, and I had a promise from Tare that if it looked like anything bad was gonna happen, she and Russky were gonna hightail it back here as quick as possible.”  Faith admits, chuckling as Buffy darts her a grin. 

 

“I figured you had some kind of promise from Tara.”  Buffy watches as Justine comes over to grab the platter of hamburgers. 

 

“Tara wants to know if you two want everything but the kitchen sink on your burgers?”  Justine chuckles softly as both slayers nod eagerly.  “I’ll be back in a few minutes with a few to tide you over while you’re cooking.” 

 

“Smart kid.”  Faith chuckles as the teenager darts back into the house.  “Were we ever that young, B?”

 

“I sometimes wonder, Faith.”  Buffy admits sadly.  “Sometimes I forget that I’m twenty-one years old.”

 

“Damn, I keep forgettin’.  What are we gonna do about Tare’s birthday?”  Faith frowns, her lover’s birthday literally only days away.  “She said not to worry about it, that after all this shit is over and done with that maybe I could take her away for a long weekend or somethin’, but…”

 

“We can’t do that.”  Buffy shakes her head, remembering last year, Tara’s birthday having come right after her and Willow broke up and the Wiccan, as far as she knew, had celebrated it by herself, of course she herself was pretty out of it at the time just being brought back.  “She didn’t have a party or anything last year because of everything.  We can’t do it two years in a row to her.”

 

“She’s gonna notice if I disappear to find somethin’ for her.”  Faith mutters as she thinks to herself. 

 

“Unless you and maybe Sasha decide to run around town to pick up some items that we need here.  Maybe some air beds and other items?”  Buffy offers, quirking an eyebrow questioningly at Faith.

 

A slow smile crosses Faith’s face as she flips the burgers.  “That’ll work.  Thanks B.  Me and the Russky can go out tomorrow morning while you get ta play bitch to the kiddies.”

 

“Oh, joy.”  Buffy rolls her eyes before the two slayers chuckle. 

 

***

 

Buffy sits with her legs dangling off the roof outside her window as she watches the quiet street, not able to sleep.  Hearing the front door open downstairs, she frowns, wondering who was sneaking out, squeaking uncontrollably as a hand reaches up to grasp her foot and tug on it, the large hand giving away who it is.

 

“What are you doing awake?  You need to sleep, Buffy.”  Sasha comments before moving her hand to the edge of the small section of roof that overhangs the porch and pulls herself up to sit beside the slayer.  “I am on watch tonight.”  The three slayers taking turns staying up during the night, then sleeping part of the next day. 

 

“Couldn’t sleep.”  Buffy admits, leaning back on her hands as she relaxes from the initial surprise and shock of the Russian’s hand grabbing her foot. 

 

“I don’t see how anyone can with those two.”  Sasha smirks and tilts her head towards the other window that leads to the bedroom Tara and Faith are in, the moans and stifled cries making the two women laugh. 

 

“They are a little loud at times.  Though they do honestly try to keep the noise down.”  Buffy admits, chuckling as they hear another cut off cry. 

 

“Willow has taken to wearing…”  Sasha frowns as she forgets the English word.  Pointing to her ears she looks hopefully at Buffy. 

 

“Ear plugs?”  Buffy questions, laughing quietly as Sasha nods. 
Sighing as she thinks about Willow, Buffy pulls her legs up and wraps her arms around them as she rests her chin on her knees.  “I think she’s slowly getting used to Tara and Faith being a couple, but getting used to it and listening to them is two different things.”

 

Sasha crosses her legs and relaxes back as she watches Buffy become quiet and continues to look contemplatively out at the night.  Alternating watching the blonde slayer and looking out at the night, Sasha enjoys the peace and quiet of the town, a small smile crossing her lips as an hour or so later she hears whispered I love you’s coming from the witch’s and rogue slayer’s room.

 

“Did you leave anyone back in Russia, Sasha?” Buffy asks a little while later, shifting slightly and laying her cheek on her knees as she looks at the slayer. 

 

“Do you mean a boyfriend or girlfriend?”  Sasha tilts her head at the slayer, smiling softly as Buffy barely nods her head.  “No.  I did not think it would be fair to the other person to be with me.  It is not like I could go out on a date like a regular person.” 

 

Buffy sighs and closes her eyes.  “Hiding who you are from the general public and trying to have a normal life is almost impossible as a slayer.”  Buffy admits, slowly opening her eyes and smiling sadly at the tall Russian.  “Finding someone that you can be yourself with and that doesn’t have a problem with your calling is extremely hard.  Even just to date and enjoy being with, let alone have an actual relationship with.”

 

“For you, you have a little bigger group to choose from.”  Sasha grins as Buffy frowns at her in confusion.  “You have the redhead…”  Sasha chuckles at the rolled nose, dark blush and hard shake of the head she gets from Buffy.  “The potentials…”  When the slayer shivers uncontrollably and glares at her in disgust, Sasha shifts slightly and leans closer as if to tell her a secret, fighting the chuckle that wants to escape as Buffy also moves closer, knowing that the slayer is unaware of her movements.  “Or…”  Sasha whispers the single word before closing the short distance between them and brushes her lips softly over Buffy’s, smiling as she leans back and the slayer’s eyes are closed and her mouth is slightly open in surprise.  “Me.”

 

Buffy’s eyes slowly open and she blinks in surprise at the slayer, looking into blue eyes watching her intently.  Her hand already pressing against her lips at the remembered softness of the brief kiss, wishing it had been longer. 

 

“I was told to throw you on the bed and kiss you… silly, I believe is the word, then tell you…”  Sasha frowns as she tries to remember the exact words that Tara told her to say.

 

“I’m going to kill me a certain witch.”  Buffy growls, blushing darkly as she wonders if Tara told Sasha exactly what she’d told the blonde to do with Faith. 

 

“It was not bad…  She said that this is the only way to get what we both want, I believe.”  Sasha looks curiously at the dark blush on the slayer’s face then really begins to wonder as Buffy sighs in relief. 

 

“Okay, no killing the witch.”  Buffy groans and rubs a hand over her forehead. 

 

“And hopefully no killing me.”  Sasha relaxes as Buffy smiles at her and shakes her head.  “That is good, because of this…”  Sasha quickly sneaks in and presses her lips more firmly against Buffy’s, groaning softly as a small hand creeps around her neck and grasps it to hold her tightly against Buffy even as the slayer’s lips open beneath hers. 

 

Buffy whimpers softly as Sasha takes her up on her offer and invades her mouth, a fleeting, irrational thought of wishing Russia had invaded sooner going through her mind as she shifts for a tighter mouth to mouth fit as she battles softly against Sasha’s tongue, the kiss becoming more heated. 

 

Sasha groans as she somehow finds herself flat on her back and Buffy’s body pressing heavily into hers even as the petite slayer starts to kiss, lick and nibble her way down her throat.  “Ma Petite…”  Sasha whimpers as Buffy suckles at her pulse point.  Running her hands over Buffy’s back, she slowly brings one hand around to gently brush a thumb over Buffy’s cheek when the slayer finally just buries her face in her neck, the hot breath coming rapidly from Buffy’s parted lips.

 

“Sorry.”  Buffy finally whispers as she realizes she’s literally lying on top of the tall slayer before gently easing off the woman.  Taking a deep breath to try and get control of her breathing, she runs her fingers gently over the prominent cheekbones of the Russian.

 

“Do not be sorry, Buffy.  Do not ever be sorry.”  Sasha’s lips curl up in answer to the smile Buffy gives her. 

 

“I wasn’t sorry for the kiss, more for the making myself at home on top of you.”  Buffy blushes lightly.

 

“Do I need to repeat myself?”  Sasha laughs softly as Buffy groans and shakes her head.  “I take it from your earlier response, that Tara did not tell me quite the truth with what you originally told her to do?”

 

“She gave you the watered down, clean version of what I said.”  Buffy admits, pursing her lips in embarrassment. 

 

“Did you tell her to fuck Faith silly?”  Sasha dies laughing as Buffy blushes darkly and shifts to bury her face against her shoulder.  “I will take that to be a yes.”  Wrapping her arms around the slayer she carefully maneuvers and shifts to a sitting position with Buffy curled up against her.  Becoming serious, Sasha gently rubs her chin over the top of Buffy’s head as the slayer actually relaxes against her.  “I like you, Buffy Summers.  I am attracted to you, also.  I cannot declare undying love for you, but I do promise not to hurt you.  We do not know what tomorrow will bring, but life is too short for me not to tell you this.”

 

Buffy shifts slightly to rest her cheek against a strong shoulder as she lets her fingers play over the collar of Sasha’s shirt, the honesty of the Russian slayer’s words calming her.  “Thank you for being honest.  It doesn’t bother you?”

 

“What bother me?”  Sasha carefully tilts Buffy’s chin up to look into worried hazel eyes.  “That you are considering me as someone that you wish to become intimate with?  No, it does not bother me, Buffy.  I feel honored, and hope that I do not disappoint.” 

 

“I’ve never…”  Buffy starts, only to be stopped by Sasha pressing her lips tenderly to hers. 

 

“It is not something that worries me, ma petite.”  Sasha chuckles at the disgruntled look crossing Buffy’s face.

 

“Let me guess, Tara.”  Buffy growls softly as Sasha grins at her.  “Just how much talking did you two do today…  Never mind, I don’t think I want to know.”  Buffy waves off the tall woman as she starts to open her mouth.  “I’ll have a talk with her tomorrow.”

 

Sasha rubs her hand soothingly over the slayer’s back.  “Climb back into your room, ma petite.  Try and get some sleep, I will do a small patrol around the house then sit on the front porch and think about you sleeping and dreaming of what wicked things you would like me to do to you.”  Sasha brushes her lips against Buffy’s forehead before patting the slayer gently.

 

Buffy sighs softly as she watches Sasha shift and drop down to the ground.  Sliding down to the edge of the overhang, she smiles as Sasha looks up at her and winks as she grabs the two short swords she had taken a liking to and starts to whistle softly as she strides around the house.  Chuckling softly at the thought of what kind of wicked things the tall woman can do to her, having a feeling she’ll probably end up rocking her world and if nothing else it’ll be a rewarding sexual experience and hopefully get rid of some of this pent up tension that she’s been feeling. 

 

Climbing in her window she leaves it cracked for the cool breeze as she strips before sliding in the bed, slowly falling asleep with a smile on her face.

 

***

 

Chapter 28

 

Sasha turns to look at who is tapping her on the shoulder, smiling softly as Buffy grins at her.  Slowly unwrapping the bindings around her hands, she turns completely around.

 

“Go lie down in my bed and get some sleep, Sasha.  You played sentry last night and need to get some rest.”  Buffy orders quietly. 

 

Sasha starts to reach out to caress Buffy’s cheek, before dropping her hand a few inches shy of her destination and nodding.  “Da.” 

 

Buffy swallows as she watches Sasha stride towards the house, wondering if the reason the tall slayer didn’t continue on with what was obviously going to be a caress was because of everyone else being outside, or the more likely option that she didn’t know if she, Buffy, was willing to be public about whatever is happening between them.  “Sasha.”  Buffy whispers softly, knowing the only people that would be able to hear her would be Sasha and Faith.  Watching as Sasha stops in her tracks but doesn’t turn around Buffy takes a deep breath and questions in an equally soft voice.  “Did you stop because you were afraid of what everyone else would think or out of some sense of chivalry for me?”

 

Sasha debates with herself for a minute before simply answering with the truth, not knowing if this attraction they have for each other is to be public knowledge or not.  “You.” 

 

“Next time?”  Buffy watches as Sasha’s head nods as she waits for her to continue.  “Don’t stop.”  Buffy feels her lips quirking up as Sasha spins around so quickly that she almost loses her balance.  Ignoring the low chuckle coming from Faith, Buffy’s eyes widen as the tall slayer strides towards her.

 

Sasha stops to where there’s just an inch between their bodies as she looks down into wide hazel eyes.  Having finished pulling off the wraps on the way to the house, Sasha lifts her hand to gently cup Buffy’s cheek.  “You will be…”  Sasha growls softly before continuing with what she hopes is the right words.  “Calling the shots in this relationship, ma petite.”

 

Tara frowns as she hears Faith chuckle, before turning to follow her lover’s gaze, her eyes widening as Buffy grasps Sasha’s t-shirt and tugs on it to pull the Russian down, kissing her firmly.  “Well, huh.”

 

“Told ya’.”  Faith smirks, chuckling wickedly.  “And if I’m right… that ain’t the first kiss they shared.” 

 

“Well, it is a known fact Buffy likes tall people.”  Tara giggles as Buffy flips her off before the blonde slayer buries that hand in black strands, obviously deepening the kiss between her and Sasha.  “Definitely not the first kiss.” 

 

“Kinda makes ya’ want to sneak up to the bedroom for a little afternoon fun, don’t it?”  Faith wiggles her eyebrows at Tara, laughing as Tara blushes and darts a look at the potentials that are all staring in stunned shock at Buffy and Sasha.  “Where’s Willow?”  Tara questions worriedly, knowing the redhead had been out there a few minutes ago.

 

“She disappeared into the house right after B and Russky started kissin’.”  Faith admits.

 

“Should I…”  Tara looks questioningly at her lover, her eyes darting towards the house before sighing quietly as she looks back into warm brown eyes. 

“I’m leavin’ it up to you, babe.  I trust ya’.  Even though I ain’t to the point of trustin’ Red yet when it comes to you.”  Faith cups Tara’s neck and looks into warm blue eyes, smiling at the sight of the love showing just for her.  “Make sure she’s okay.”  Faith whispers against Tara’s lips as she kisses her lover tenderly. 

 

“I love you.”  Tara whispers after the loving kiss before she hurries away into the house.

 

***

 

Knocking softly on Willow’s half closed bedroom door, Tara finally pokes her head around as she hears more of a grunt than anything as an invitation to come in. 

 

Willow stares out the window, looking at Buffy and the tall Russian talking in the corner away from the rest of the group, the two women standing right against each other.  The shock and hurt she’d felt when she realized that everyone around her was hooking up with someone, even Buffy with the other slayer, is almost a tangible presence.  Shaking her head at the incongruity of the thought of Buffy and another woman together, she sighs and leans her forehead against the glass when she hears the quiet knock, though she knows the knock her eyes confirm that Tara’s not outside with everyone else.  Grunting softly at the realization, Willow sighs heavily. 

 

“Are you okay?”  Tara hesitantly questions, noticing the stooped shoulders of the redhead as she steps into the room, but stays by the door not wanting to crowd Willow.

 

“Did you see that coming?”  Willow whispers, her eyes drawn once more to Buffy and Sasha, watching her best friend as she plays with the edge of the tall slayer’s shirt as she smiles up at the woman, the fact that Buffy likes the woman obvious.  And if the soft touch of the Russian tucking some loose hair behind Buffy’s ear is an indication, she likes her, also.

 

Tara looks down at the floor shaking her head more to herself, since Willow isn’t looking at her.  “Not really.  Faith did and mentioned it to me, actually asking me to talk with Sasha.”

 

“Faith saw that Sasha liked Buffy?”  Willow does turn this time and looks at Tara in shock.

 

“Ummm.  Not exactly.  Faith saw that Buffy liked Sasha and wanted me to make sure that Sasha was open to a possible relationship with Buffy.”  Tara shifts slightly at the admittance, though she keeps eye contact with Willow, refusing to back down.  Not willing to tell Willow exactly what the conversation entailed, not knowing how she would react to the fact that the two women may very well just be physically attracted to each other and were obviously working on that attraction.

 

“So, since Faith asked you to talk to Sasha, you did.”  Willow almost sneers as she angrily turns back to the window.

 

“Yes, I did.  She asks me to do a lot of things.  Sometimes I do them, sometimes I don’t.  Sometimes we argue about things and butt heads almost ending in screaming matches.  But we talk to each other about whatever it is and work through them together.  We have a partnership.  It isn’t perfect then again what relationship is?  You’re going to have to get it through that thick head of yours that I’m in love with Faith.  Don’t think I don’t know what you’re being angry and upset is about.  It isn’t about Buffy and Sasha possibly having a relationship.  It’s about me and Faith.”  Tara glares at Willow as the redhead snaps around to stare at her in defiance as she starts to talk to her heatedly.  “I’m not coming back to you Willow.  Our life together ended over a year ago when you decided magic was more important than we were.  When talking about things and working them out like normal people was too much work and was much easier to fix with a spell.  Don’t you blame me, Faith, Buffy, Sasha or anyone else for your fuck up, Willow!  Place the blame where it belongs.”  Tara watches as the redhead pales and the shock crosses her face.

 

Willow unconsciously steps back, pressing her back against the wall at Tara’s angry diatribe, and her ex-lover using the word fuck.  She can count on one hand the number of times Tara’s used that word in the whole time she’s known her.  Swallowing hard as it really hits home that she was the one that screwed up, enough with blaming everyone else, or the magic.  Ultimately the blame needed to be laid right at her doorstep.  Closing her eyes and rubbing a hand over her forehead, Willow nods.  “I did screw up.”  Willow finally whispers, dropping her hand and opening her eyes to look at Tara.  “But I can’t just turn off the way I feel for you, Tara.  I still love you.”  Willow admits, looking into blue eyes that watch her without any emotion showing, that more than anything striking an arrow through her heart.  Tara one of the few people that usually doesn’t hide her emotions.

 

“You need to let go, Willow.”  Tara finally comments after a few minutes of staring at the redhead.  “We are not going to happen, and the sooner you let go of me and the past, the sooner you can move on with your life.  I don’t know where your life is leading you, but mine is with Faith.”  Tara tilts her head as she feels the nervousness coming from someone that was coming up the stairs.  “Buffy obviously likes Sasha, and she can probably use a friend to talk to about her feelings, since liking women is obviously new to her.  I’ve always liked women, so I really don’t know what would make it easier on her.  Faith…  Well, Faith is Faith.”  Tara can’t help but grin crookedly at the thought of her lover.  “Her brand of help isn’t something that would probably be actually helpful.  You might want to offer your ear as a friend.” 

 

Willow slowly nods her head in agreement, knowing it isn’t going to be easy for her to let Tara go.  But knowing ultimately she doesn’t have much of a choice.  “I’ll talk with Buffy in a little while.”  Willow whispers as she watches Tara smile softly at her before the blonde slips back out of the room.  Turning slowly back around, she looks down at the back yard where Buffy and Faith are working with the potentials.  Wondering if she can ever let go of Tara completely and open herself to someone new.  The love they had was something she thought was meant to be forever, but in her own ignorance and stupidity she’d ruined that love.  Sighing quietly and resting her head again on the window she stares unseeingly out at the day as she replays how she’d started doing things wrong almost from the beginning with Tara.

 

***

 

Sasha hesitates as she hears the heated discussion between Tara and Willow.  Hearing the blonde go off on the redhead making a small smile appear on her lips even as she slowly starts to feel nervous at hearing the different comments, not feeling right overhearing what is a personal conversation.  A huge smile crosses her face as Tara states that Buffy obviously likes her, making Sasha’s heart pound excitedly, even if she already knows that fact, but hearing Tara state it so easily makes it settle a little more inside her.  She chuckles as she can almost hear the smile in the blonde witch’s voice as she mentions Faith, silently agreeing with Tara that Faith probably wouldn’t be much help in this particular instance.  Eyes widening as Tara finally makes her way down the stairs.  Starting to open her mouth to apologize, she slowly closes it at the soft smile and shake of the head she gets from Tara. 

 

“I figured it was you on the stairs.  Just time to air out the dirty laundry a little more to hopefully get the majority of the stench gone.”  Tara smiles sadly at the tall slayer as she pats her on the shoulder.  “Go lie down and get some rest, Sasha.  I’ll wake you up later when we get ready to each lunch.”

 

“Thank you, Tara.”  Sasha gently wraps the witch in her arms and hugs her.  “You make a very wonderful friend.” 

 

Tara chuckles and returns the hug.  “Wonderful friend, but a bitch as an enemy.  Remember that, and treat Buffy well.  You know what her love life’s been like, so…”

 

“She is driving this relationship.”  Sasha admits as she eases back to smile shyly at the witch.  “I want her to have control and to be comfortable with whatever we do.  I will not push for anything.  She has to willingly give.”

 

“Buffy’s lucky to have you.”  Tara gently pats Sasha on the cheek before chuckling and finishing going down the stairs.  “Now go get some rest, while I go outside to softly make comments under my breath to irritate and embarrass a couple slayers.”

 

“Ah, the wicked witch is here, I see.”  Sasha chuckles as she jogs up the stairs.  “Remind me to be on my best behavior around you.”

 

“That takes all the fun out of it!”  Tara laughs as she heads towards the back door, silently admitting that Sasha would be a good match for Buffy.  Someone that’s strong in their own right but wouldn’t try to be overprotective, bossy and a know it all.  The slayer needing a partner and equal more than someone that wants to put her up on a pedestal to allow her to wither away. 

 

Opening the back door, she steps down onto the small patio, smiling softly as Faith gruffly tells Lisa to sit down and rest, that she was still healing and shouldn’t overdo it.  Though the potential may not realize it that was Faith’s way of letting her know she’s worried about her and cares.  When Faith turns to look at her with warm brown eyes, Tara winks at her lover and mouths ‘I love you’.  Grinning crookedly as Faith mouths the words back to her before turning back to the other three potentials.

 

Sitting down on the steps Tara watches as Faith and Buffy work with Justine, Tracy and Mandy.  After the Bringers’ attack, the two slayer’s had started working almost eight hours a day with the potentials to get them proficient with different weapons.  As Buffy works with Justine, Faith has Tracy and Mandy practicing with the wood swords, leaving them with a couple suggestions before trotting towards her.

 

“Are you okay, babe?”  Faith drops down to her haunches in front of Tara and searches her eyes, not wanting to admit that she and Buffy had heard pretty much everything that was said between her and Willow.  Not knowing if her lover had realized the window was open a couple inches.

 

“Do you have any idea how much I love you?  Your stubbornness, your attitude, even the way you get pissed at me over things that happened before you and I were a couple!”  Tara reaches up and cups her lover’s face between her hands and leans forward to kiss her lovingly.  “Other than a few things that are more works in progress helping you through your past, I do NOT want you to change, Faith.  I like my stubborn, hard-headed love.” 

 

“Good thing.  I don’t think I’d be able to get rid of that.”  Faith moves to sit beside Tara, gently picking her lover up and settling her sideways on her lap as she wraps her arms around her waist and nibbles gently on her neck.  “One day, ya’ll be able to throw me down on the bed and ravish me like ya’ want to.  I promise ya’.  No tensin’ up and no fear.”  Faith nips on Tara’s ear before flicking her tongue teasingly over it.  “I thought maybe tonight I’d let ya’ try that other thing you were wantin’ to do.  After all, that mouth of yours oughta be considered a lethal weapon of the orgasmic variety, and if you’re wantin’ to be adventurous, I ain’t gonna complain.”

 

Tara shivers and closes her eyes at the slayer’s low, rough, sexy voice practically rumbling in her ear, sending streaks of desire through her whole body.  “M-me be adventurous?”  Tara groans deeply, wiggling uncomfortably as her body heats up uncontrollably, knowing her panties and jeans are probably both already soaked with desire.  “What about what you did to me last night?”

 

“I was just testin’ the waters to see how pleasurable it might be.”  Faith snorts softly at the glare she gets from her lover.  “I figured if you enjoyed it, there would be a good chance I’d enjoy it.”

 

“And you’re actually willing to let me do the same things to you tonight?”  Tara stretches her neck giving her lover more to work with as Faith nuzzles and growls her way softly up the flesh. 

 

“I’m willin’ to let ya’ try.  See how I like it and how it goes…”  Faith hugs Tara tightly to her, smirking as Buffy sends her a dirty look.  “We better not get detailed, B’s already givin’ us dirty looks.”

 

“B can just go upstairs and wake up that tall, black-haired slayer that she’s been panting after and find out for herself what kind of adventures they can get up to.”  Tara snorts softly as she shifts and buries her face against Faith’s neck as her lover laughs at her comments. 

 

“What, you ain’t willin’ to give her a few pointers?”  Faith keeps her eyes on Buffy, grinning ear to ear at the glares she and Tara are receiving from the blonde slayer.

 

“Sure, take your vitamins, Buffy.  Trying to keep up with a slayer can be downright exhausting.”  Tara starts to laugh at the soft growl she gets from Faith.  “But more rewarding than you can ever imagine.”

 

“Nice save.”  Faith smacks Tara gently on the leg.  “I should go play with the kiddies for a little while.”

 

“And I should probably start working on something for lunch.”  Tara smiles softly as Faith brushes her lips over her temple and hugs her before lifting her to set her on her feet. 

 

“Burritos?”  Faith questions hopefully, knowing Tara had picked up the ingredients for the items.

 

“We’ll see.”  Tara grins crookedly as she steps up the stairs, running her hand through Faith’s hair before stepping into the house, chuckling softly at the soft groan she gets in response.   

 

***

 

Chapter 29

 

Buffy gently shuts the door behind her, carrying the tray piled with burritos, Spanish rice, some refried beans’ concoction and a couple glasses filled with ice with a two-liter of soda under her arm.  Carefully setting the tray down on the nightstand, Buffy sets the two-liter on the floor and smiles at the sight of Sasha sprawled face down on the bed, tank top and shorts the only items the woman is wearing, the strength of the slayer obvious even as she’s relaxed and asleep.  Taking time to actually take in the slayer’s body, Buffy starts at her feet and the high arches, smiling as she slowly trails over the muscular calves of the soft looking skin and the thick, muscular thighs to the taut, round butt.  Fighting the groan wanting to escape her, she slowly works her way up over the narrow waist and the broad shoulders, the definition of the muscles of the woman’s body a testament to her work ethic and slayer status. 

 

Sasha smiles and waits to see if Buffy will say anything, having woken as soon as the slayer stepped into the room.  After ten minutes of silence, she hoarsely questions Buffy.  “Is it okay if I roll over now, or do you want to continue to… appraise?”

 

Buffy jumps slightly even as her face flushes with embarrassment.  “I’m sorry.  I didn’t realize you were awake.  I, uh, brought food.” 

 

Sasha snorts softly.  “I thank you, the food smells wonderful.  However, may I turn over?”

 

“Damn it, Sasha.”  Buffy growls and smacks the slayer gently on the shoulder at the laughter coming from the woman.  Squeaking in surprise as she finds herself quickly pulled down on top of Sasha after the slayer had flipped over onto her back.  Pressing her body firmly into the tall slayer’s, Buffy’s unaware of her entangling her shorter legs with Sasha’s as she looks into the grinning Russian’s face.  “You got me, now what are you going to do with me?”

 

“Do not tempt me, ma petite.  The food would be extremely cold by the time I would finish just a couple things I would like to do with you.”  Sasha smirks as a dark blush comes up on Buffy’s face as she gently grasps the slayer’s waist, her thumbs stroking softly over Buffy’s stomach.

 

“Are you easily tempted?”  Buffy finally questions hoarsely, trying to ignore the blush she knows is still visible on her face as she shifts slightly to run her fingers softly over one prominent cheekbone. 

 

“You are tempting.”  Sasha whispers, closing her eyes as Buffy’s fingers trail softly over her eyebrow and down her nose, whimpering as soft lips caress over hers. 

 

Buffy growls softly as she hears the whimper coming from Sasha, pressing more firmly against Sasha’s lips, flicking her tongue over the full bottom lip until Sasha opens to her.  Growling louder, she dives in to tangle heatedly against Sasha’s tongue even as she presses her body firmly against the tall slayer’s starting a slow rock of her center against Sasha’s hip.

 

Working her thumbs under Buffy’s top, Sasha strokes tenderly over the warm, firm flesh of Buffy’s abdomen even as she shifts slightly to give Buffy better contact against her body, groaning as with her shifting, Buffy’s thigh presses more firmly against her own body.

 

“Yesss…”  Buffy growls, breaking off the kiss as she presses her forehead against Sasha’s and rocks more forcefully against the body under hers.  Panting lightly, Buffy swallows at the heaviness and desire working through her body.  Feeling Sasha’s hands shift upwards, her thumbs stroking over her ribs, Buffy drags her eyes open to look down into blue eyes almost aflame with the desire obviously working its way through the Russian.

 

“May I touch, ma petite?”  Sasha hoarsely whispers, her thumbs brushing against the bottom edge of Buffy’s bra, but not moving any further without the senior slayer’s approval. 

 

“Please.”  Buffy begs softly, pressing her body upwards, groaning and arching as she presses harder against Sasha.

 

Sasha quickly pushes the slayer’s top up, groaning as Buffy quickly finishes ripping it over her head.  Starting to slide her hands to the edge of the exercise bra, Sasha half-closes her eyes as Buffy’s hands beat her to the fabric and it gets pulled up and off, baring the slayer’s pert breasts to her gaze.  “Ma petite…”  Sasha whimpers, pushing up to capture one nipple between her lips to suckle tenderly on the flesh.

 

Buffy tilts her head back, moaning loudly as she rocks harder and faster against the black haired slayer as she can feel her body coiling as the orgasm starts to work it’s way through her.  Reaching up with both hands to hold Sasha against her breast, Buffy jerks, crying out softly with the release.

 

Sasha wraps her arms firmly around Buffy, holding her tightly while continuing to suckle and flick the hard nipple with her tongue, allowing the blonde slayer to ride out her orgasm.  As Buffy’s body slows the rocking motion and her hands aren’t holding her so tightly against her, Sasha kisses her way slowly over to the other breast to trail her tongue around the crinkled areola.  Grinning at the low growl she gets after a few long minutes of teasing the flesh without coming into contact with the hardened little nub.  Pursing her lips, she blows a slow steady stream of cool air over the wet flesh.

 

“Damn it, Sasha.”  Buffy growls at the teasing slayer, digging her fingers gently into the muscular shoulders.

 

“Our food is growing cold…”  Sasha reminds Buffy laughing out loud at the mumbled response she gets.

 

“Fuck the food.”  Buffy mumbles, pressing the slayer’s mouth against her breast. 

 

“I do not think those particular items would be good for that.”  Sasha nips gently at the flesh in front of her before capturing as much of the slayer’s breast into her mouth as she can.

 

“You’re being too literal… aaaahhhh….”  Buffy moans loudly at the delicious feeling of her breast being engulfed by a warm wet mouth and a talented tongue, teasing, flicking and stroking over her sensitized nipple.  “Oh, God… I think I’m gonna…”  Buffy jumps as Sasha bites down just enough to send a streak of pleasurable pain from her nipple straight to her clit, causing her to tip over the edge again.

 

Panting softly, Sasha drops back down to the bed, Buffy following her down and burying her face in her neck.  Stroking her hands up and down the strong back, Sasha closes her eyes and enjoys the feel of the warm, soft skin under her hands. 

 

As Buffy finally calms down, she presses a soft kiss against the flesh under her lips, smiling at the low chuckle she gets from Sasha.  Nuzzling in against the warm flesh, Buffy sighs contentedly.  “I wasn’t expecting things to move along quite this quickly.”  Buffy admits. 

 

“Technically I only made it to…”  Sasha frowns, trying to remember what it’s called.  “Second base?”  Sasha questions curiously, as she strokes her thumbs over the sides of Buffy’s breasts.

 

Buffy buries her face against Sasha’s neck firmly, feeling her cheeks heat up.  Because technically, Sasha’s right.  The Russian slayer had only made it to second base with her, even if she did climax twice.  “Oh, shit…  Sasha you didn’t…”

 

“Shhh.”  Sasha presses a finger against Buffy’s lips as with her words, she’d jerked back to look down at her in shock and worry.  Moving her finger, she gently cups Buffy’s cheek and urges her down for a tender kiss.  “No rush, ma petite.  We only go as far and as fast as you are ready for.”

 

“But…”  Buffy starts only to find full lips pressing against hers effectively stifling her next comment. 

 

“We should eat, or the Terror will become angry with us.”  Sasha whispers softly against Buffy’s lips, smiling at the snort coming from the other slayer. 

 

“Terror?”  Buffy finally shifts to ease onto her side, her hand unconsciously caressing over Sasha’s stomach from where her top had ridden up slightly with their movements.

 

“Yes.  I believe that is a good name for the blonde witch.  She can strike terror into the hearts of her victims… and friends alike.”  Sasha smirks at the quiet laughter coming from Buffy.

 

“I can’t wait to see what she does when you call her that to her face.”  Buffy brushes her cheek against Sasha’s shoulder.

 

Sasha gently clasps Buffy’s hand in hers, stopping the movement as it had been gradually making its way closer and closer to her apex.  “The food will probably need to be warmed up.  And I should make an appearance at this afternoon’s session.” 

 

Buffy sighs quietly but nods her head in agreement, not even aware of where her hand had been headed.  “I should get redressed.”  Buffy glances down at her bare chest, a slow smirk crossing her lips as she notices the slight swelling of her breasts to go along with the tenderness from the attention they had received, knowing that it won’t last. 

 

Sasha watches as Buffy finally shifts out of the bed and looks around for her discarded bra and top, finally finding them and putting them on.  Throwing her legs over the edge of the bed, Sasha smiles at the satisfied smile on Buffy’s lips, wondering if she’s even aware of it. 

 

“Can we talk tonight?”  Buffy finally makes eye contact with the smiling Russian, her breath catching for a moment in her chest at the sight of the beautiful woman.  When Sasha nods even as she stands and stretches, Buffy licks her lips at the sight before her.  Shaking her head at the visceral reaction, she grabs the tray.  “Can you get the soda?”

 

“Of course.”  Sasha quickly reaches the door and opens it for Buffy.  “I will be down in a few minutes.”

 

“I’ll start reheating the food.”  Buffy smiles softly even as she blushes before she darts out of the room. 

 

***

 

“What are you smirking at?”  Tara questions curiously as she looks at her lover, sitting down beside her with another plate filled with food and hands it to her.

 

Faith’s eyes dart to the ceiling above them before she laughs and leans in to Tara.  “Someone’s gettin’ a little busy upstairs.  Got a feelin’ that the foods not bein’ eaten, if ya’ get my drift.”

 

Tara smacks Faith on the leg at the softly whispered words.  “Stop listening in.”

 

“Can’t help it.  Though from what I can gather…”  Faith starts, only to grunt as her lover shoves a huge section of burrito in her mouth.

 

“I don’t want to know about anyone else’s sex life, Faith.  I have all I can handle keeping up with ours.”  Tara warns, her eyes narrowed on her lover.

 

Faith grins around the mouthful of food as she sees the spark of amusement in her lover’s eyes.  Chewing and swallowing, she nibbles on Tara’s neck.  “I thought you liked our sex life.”

 

“I love you, I definitely enjoy our sex life and…”  Tara groans as Faith starts to suckle softly at her pulse point.  “Goddess, you know just how to touch me.”

 

“You make it easy.”  Faith whispers, nipping gently at the flesh after setting down the plate, smiling as Tara pushes closer to her. 

 

“How so?”  Tara exhales softly as Faith presses a soft kiss to her flesh as she leans back into the couch.  Snuggling against her lover’s side as Faith wraps her arms around her and hugs her against her.

 

“Your body reacts with everythin’ I do.  Your whimpers, groans, sighs, inhale softly, inhale sharply, you move closer or further away…”  Faith runs her fingers through the soft silken strands.  “And then you also tell me at certain times when you need something more.  An extra soft touch or even the occasional nibbling that you want to be harder.”

 

“You do the same thing.”  Tara points out pressing her lips to Faith’s upper chest as she rubs her cheek over the firm flesh.

 

“Uh, huh.  You made me promise ta’ tell ya’ if I needed somethin’.  And I do.  I think it works well for us.”  Faith hugs Tara firmly, having to admit that it has helped her to talk and open up more.  Though ultimately she knows she’s still a far way from being completely open and relaxed about things.  But being with Tara helps, as the witch doesn’t push or force her to open up… and she always backs off and gives her time to calm down if she does something that makes her remember something from the past when they’re having sex.

 

“I think it does, too.”  Tara murmurs, wiggling her hand under her lover’s top to stroke over the warm flesh.  “Have I told you how proud I am of you?”

 

Faith snorts softly.  “Proud of me?  How do ya’ figure?”

 

“You’ve changed so much, Faith.”  Tara shifts so she can look at Faith, but still be able to keep as much physical contact as possible.  “Think about how you hardly ever flinch away from my touch now.  How often you reach out for affection.”

 

“Yeah, ya’ mean how often I reach out ta’ get into your pants.”  Faith snorts reaching out for Tara’s jeans, plucking at the button and wiggling her eyebrows suggestively. 

 

“Behave, the children are in the dining room.”  Tara winks at Faith and grins crookedly at her lover.  “And you know what I’m talking about.  Like earlier when you were worried about me, you reached out to soothe me.  Just curling up here on the couch to watch television together, cooking in the kitchen how often do you reach out and stroke a finger down my cheek, neck, arm…”  Tara points out softly.  Leaning in closely, Tara more breathes into Faith’s ear than says the words.  “How you eagerly look forward to me settling between your muscular thighs to nuzzle, kiss…”  Tara laughs into her lover’s mouth as Faith turns her head to kiss her hungrily. 

 

“Careful or I’ll be carryin’ your ass upstairs.”  Faith growls after the kiss, looking into twinkling blue eyes. 

 

“Nooners seem to be a common occurrence around here.”  Tara smirks and looks up at the stairs as Buffy stops, her eyes wide like a deer caught in the headlights, a blush working its way up her face.

 

Faith snorts and buries her face in Tara’s neck, hugging her firmly. 

 

“I, um, am just, um, needing to reheat lunch…”  Buffy trots down the stairs and disappears towards the kitchen quickly, trying to ignore the snorts coming from Faith and the knowing smirk crossing Tara’s face.  “Damn it!  Second base is all!!”  Buffy tosses over her shoulder, groaning at the laughter following her.

 

“Does she expect us to believe that?  I mean, did she even look in the mirror before she came down?”  Tara grins crookedly at she looks back at her lover.  “She’s got a glow thing going on.”

 

“She does.”  Faith agrees, chuckling.  “I guess I should eat the rest of the food, before it needs to be heated up, too.”

 

“Probably does need to be re-heated.”  Tara admits, looking at the plate.

 

“Nah.  It’s good.”  Faith shifts Tara to sit more on the couch instead of half on her.  Reaching forward, she grabs the plate and scoops up some rice and beans.  “It’s good, babe.” 

 

Tara smiles softly and leans in to press a tender kiss to Faith’s cheek. 

 

“Next.”  Faith tilts her chin towards the stairs to where Sasha is coming down with the glasses and soda in her hands, wearing a t-shirt and shorts.

 

Sasha hesitates at the sight of the two women watching her curiously.  Shrugging her shoulders, she sends them a quick smile before hurrying towards the kitchen. 

 

“Huh.”  Faith mumbles around the bite of burrito she’s eating.  Swallowing, she tilts her head.  “Maybe it was only second base?”

 

“Hmm.”  Tara hums noncommittally as she looks towards the archway that leads into the dining room and ultimately the kitchen. 

 

“You think it was more?”  Faith questions curiously.

 

“No.  I think that’s pretty much as far as it went, but what else are we usually doing when we’re on second base?”  Tara turns to grin at her lover.

 

Faith unconsciously licks her lips as she thinks about their bodies half undressed before they make it to the bed, half the time pressing Tara against the wall as they rock against each other until they took the edge off the sharp pains of desire until they could finish stripping to get to the more serious fun. 

 

Tara chuckles as Faith’s eyes darken, the desire obvious as Faith thinks about what they usually are doing.  “Get the movie to stop playing in your head and eat your food.”  Tara smacks Faith gently on the thigh before standing.

 

“HEY!”  Faith frowns as Tara moves away from her and stands.  “Where you goin’?”

 

“To get some more to drink.  Plus I figure if I leave you alone for a little while you might actually eat your dinner, instead of thinking about making me dinner.”  Tara giggles at the narrowed eyes and the growl coming from Faith. 

 

“More like dessert.”  Faith grumbles as she watches Tara trot towards the kitchen, a slow grin crossing her face at the thought. 

 

***

 

Chapter 30

 

Willow looks up from her meal she’d been poking at as Buffy goes by, having only caught part of what was said in the living room.  A few moments later Sasha strides by, deciding that now may not be the best time to talk with Buffy, she ignores the potentials as they giggle and talk about the ‘love’ lives of the slayers. 

 

Knowing that the girls don’t know the full story of everything that happened, Willow doesn’t feel like enlightening them to the fact that Tara and she used to be girlfriends for two years before she’d royally screwed things up.  Now everyone seems to be finding happiness, except her.  Anya and Xander are married, Tara is with…  Willow shakes her head and takes a deep breath.  Tara’s with Faith, even Buffy seems to be hooking up with, surprisingly enough, a woman… and a slayer at that. 

 

Setting her fork down, she stares unseeingly at her half eaten plate of food and sighs quietly.  ‘Sooner or later you’re going to have to grow up, Willow.’  Willow mentally talks to herself, sighing again. 

 

***

 

Sasha grunts softly, because as soon as she hits the kitchen she has a small blonde slayer wrapped around her, kissing her hungrily.  Groaning deeply, she hurriedly sets the glasses down before letting the two-liter drop to the floor and wrapping her arms tightly around Buffy.

 

Buffy growls deeply as she threads her hands through Sasha’s hair, not able to stop herself from practically attacking the tall slayer when she stepped into the kitchen.  The deep ball of desire in her gut that had just loosened a little with what had happened earlier in her bedroom quickly flamed to inferno level at the sight of the slayer wearing the tight t-shirt and shorts.

 

“Ficken…”  Sasha pants heavily as Buffy finally releases her mouth, shaking her head as she tries to figure out exactly what happened. 

 

“What… does… that… mean?”  Buffy pants out the question as she nips sharply on the slayer’s ear lobe.

 

“Fuck.”  Sasha answers after a few moments of trying to remember exactly what she said.

 

“What language?”  Buffy grins at the loud groan she gets from Sasha with her question.

 

“German.”  Sasha shifts and presses Buffy against the wall, smirking as the slayer growls and grinds her center against her stomach.  “I grew up speaking Russian and German, when my brain does not work completely, I’ll inter-mingle the two languages.” 

 

“Ficken…?”  Buffy half questions, half whimpers as she presses her body more firmly against Sasha’s.

 

“Daaa…”  Sasha squeezes the slayer’s ass firmly in her hands before growling and burying her face in Buffy’s neck as she hears the giggles coming from the entrance to the kitchen.  “Whoever it is, I am willing to kill them at a single word.”  Sasha warns her voice deep with want.

 

“That might piss Faith off, and trust me she’s hell on wheels when she gets going.”  Tara fights the giggles wanting to escape after finally getting them under control.  “I thought you were letting Buffy dictate this thing between you two?”  Tara points towards the two slayers, watching the dark blush come up on Buffy’s face when she realizes the position she’s in. 

 

“Sneak attack.”  Sasha growls, squeezing Buffy’s ass firmly again before moving her hands to the slayer’s legs that are still locked around her waist.  “Buffy, ma petite, please.”  Sasha whispers, as Buffy doesn’t seem ready to release her hold around her. 

 

“Don’t want to.”  Buffy shakes her head, burying her face in black silky hair.

 

Tara smirks at the tall Russian trying to get Buffy to release the grip she has around her.  As she hears the soft growl coming from Sasha, she decides it might be the smart thing to leave the two women alone and quickly heads back towards the living room.

 

“I will do something you may regret.”  Sasha warns, growling softly as all she gets in response is a quiet grunt.  “Last warning.”  Sasha tries again and when Buffy’s legs just tighten around her waist, Sasha smirks and slides her fingers a short distance and presses directly against where the slayer’s clit is.

 

“SHIT!”  Buffy jerks uncontrollably, slamming her head back against the wall as with the direct hard pressure against her clit, she climaxes instantly.  “Damn it, Sasha!”  Buffy growls a few minutes later after she stops shivering from the delightful tingles working through her body with the release. 

 

Sasha snorts and finally unwraps Buffy’s legs from around her and sets her down on the ground, holding her steady as she wavers for a few seconds on unsteady legs.  “Maybe now you will be more aware of the consequences of your actions.”  Sasha growls softly in Buffy’s ear.  “But next time, clothes will not be part of the equation.  So you best take care where you decide to jump on me.” 

 

“I’ll keep that in mind.”  Buffy squeezes Sasha’s waist that she had unconsciously been holding onto.  Moving one hand from Sasha’s waist, she moves it slowly upwards, trailing over the firm, and sensitive body of the tall slayer.  Her eyes glued on her own hand as she moves it between Sasha’s breasts, inhaling softly at the feel of the breasts on either side of her hand and the pounding of the strong heartbeat. 

 

Sasha flinches lightly at the feel of the strong, small hand caressing up her chest, her body reacting as her nipples contract and ache to be touched.  Trying her hardest to put aside her own desires Sasha closes her eyes, concentrating on anything but the hand that has stopped and is just pressing lightly against her chest. 

 

Buffy bites her bottom lip roughly as she watches Sasha’s nipples harden into prominent flesh poking insistently against her t-shirt.  As the slightly labored breathing finally sinks into her conscience, Buffy glances up.  The strained and tense facial features of the Russian slayer’s face, along with the heavy musky smell coming from her, making Buffy extremely aware of how turned on Sasha is at this moment.  “Open your eyes.”  Buffy orders softly, her hand twitching with the desire to touch the prominent peaks under Sasha’s shirt, but holding off until she can see her eyes.

 

Sasha growls softly before finally dragging her eyelids up to look down into hazel eyes watching her intently. 

 

Buffy feels her knees weaken at the look of lust and want burning brightly in the blue eyes almost turned violet with desire.  The flush of desire on Sasha’s face making her even more beautiful.  Not censoring her comment, Buffy whispers softly.  “God, you’re beautiful.”  Wrapping her free hand around Sasha’s neck, she pulls the tall slayer down for a slow, expressive kiss as her hand slowly reaches over to cup the fullness of the slayer’s breast.  Thankful for Sasha’s arms around her waist as she feels her knees buckle at the feel of the warm flesh nestling perfectly in her hand and the hard nipple poking insistently against her palm.

 

Sasha groans deeply into the slayer’s mouth as she feels the small hand cupping her breast and the palm starting to rub gently against her.  Shifting, Sasha leans her back against the wall, pulling Buffy more firmly against her body as she starts to nip and suckle at the small slayer’s lips and tongue as Buffy starts to pluck insistently at her nipple. 

 

Buffy pants heavily as Sasha grasps her bottom lip between her lips and sucks hungrily.  Pinching the prominent nipple firmly between her thumb and forefinger, Buffy attacks the tall slayer’s neck at the same time Sasha groans loudly after releasing her lip. 

 

“Buffy, bitte!”  Sasha buries her face against Buffy’s shoulder, pressing hard against the hand torturing her nipple.  Hearing the questioning grunt against her neck, Sasha groans.  “Please, stop, Buffy.  If not, we will become very… intimate very quickly.”

 

Buffy growls at Sasha’s words before finally stopping her twisting and pinching of the slayer’s nipple to caress her hand over the flesh.  “I don’t think that would be a bad thing.”  Buffy sighs as she rests her face against Sasha’s upper chest and stops her hand’s movement to just cup the warm flesh in her hand.  Never realizing how wonderful it would feel to touch another breast, to feel the nipple hard and sensitive under her fingertips.  Starting to understand a little better most men’s infatuation with breasts. 

 

Sasha breathes in deeply, trying to get control of her desire, thankful that Buffy had stopped torturing her, though the warm hand continuing to cup her breast was distracting in and of itself. 

 

“Food… we came down here to reheat the food and eat.”  Buffy mumbles, slowly dropping her hand from the tall slayer’s breast to squeeze her waist before stepping back, her legs somewhat shaky from the ball of desire pounding between them. 

 

“Food…”  Sasha nods, relaxing against the wall and closing her eyes taking in deep, calming breaths of oxygen, growling softy at the knowing chuckle coming from Buffy.

 

“We really need to talk about this.”  Buffy admits, putting the food in the microwave and pressing a couple buttons to reheat the food while watching Sasha who nods silently but doesn’t open her eyes or say anything.  “You’re really okay for this just to be…”  Buffy trails off blushing lightly.

 

Sasha slowly opens her eyes and takes in the blushing slayer.  “Buffy, we are slayers.  If we live for two years, we are good.  You could retire.  You have died twice fighting against evil, and yet you continue.  You are the longest lived slayer ever, and very, very beautiful.  Inside and outside.  I am obviously attracted to you.”  Sasha hesitates as she looks at the slayer, a soft smile on her lips.  “To have you desire me…  I will take all that you are willing to offer, ma petite.  If it is a day, a week, a month…”  Sasha trails off and shrugs knowing the likelihood of it being longer than a month with what is going on at this moment is pushing it, she smiles sadly at Buffy.

 

“You barely know me.”  Buffy whispers, searching pale blue eyes.

 

“I know you, Buffy.”  Sasha looks intently into hazel eyes.  “I know you very well, but I want to get to know you even better.”

 

“There’re things I’ve done…”  Buffy starts, shaking her head as her eyes become sad as she looks at the tall slayer, silently wondering what she’ll think of her when she tells her about Spike.  The woman probably already knowing about Angel, that’s pretty much a given, but the whole Spike debacle isn’t something that the Watcher’s books will have information on.  At least, she silently hopes they don’t.

 

“Nothing that would change my mind.”  Sasha offers simply.

 

“You can’t say that… not without knowing exactly what I’ve done.”  Buffy turns back to the microwave and pulls out the plate, sliding it onto the island and staring down at the food.  “I can’t hardly stomach what I’ve done, Sasha.”  Buffy whispers, before slowly raising her head when a gentle finger urges her to look up.  

 

“Everyone makes mistakes, ma petite.  Sometimes we do not know better, and turn left instead of right.”  Sasha smiles softly before gently brushing a feather soft kiss across Buffy’s lips.  “I will not change my mind.  Trust me.”

 

Buffy sighs and rests her forehead against Sasha’s chin.  “Trust isn’t something I give easily, Sasha.  I’ve been so damn secretive about shit my whole life.  Being called as a slayer started the ball rolling and it just kind of snowballed from there.”

 

“Our jobs make it so we have to be secretive.  I understand, Buffy.  I do.”  Sasha sighs as she gently pulls Buffy against her, hugging the small slayer to her, smiling at the feel of strong arms wrapping around her waist and holding her tightly.  Pressing a soft kiss to Buffy’s forehead, Sasha shifts and lets Buffy tuck her head under her chin as she rests it on top of the slayer’s head. 

 

“Will you keep me company for a little while tonight while I keep watch?”  Buffy finally questions, her eyes closed as she soaks up the warmth and comfort being offered her by the tall woman.

 

“Of course.”  Sasha reaches up to gently stroke over the back of the slayer’s head, letting her fingers run through the soft strands.  “We should probably eat, or the Terror will think I do not like her food.”

 

Buffy snorts softly.  “Tara being a terror seems so totally out of character, but she definitely can be hell on wheels when she gets going.”

 

“I would like to see that some day.  All I have known is what I have been told or overheard.”  Sasha admits, grinning as Buffy shifts back and smiles up at her. 

 

“And most of it was probably from Tara herself.  Just a little hint… she downplays what she’s done a LOT, so if she tells you… say she broke somebody’s finger, it was probably more like she broke two arms and a leg.”  Buffy uses that as an example, smiling up at Sasha until she sees the blue eyes widen and the woman become serious.  “What’s wrong?”

 

Sasha shakes her head as she frowns slightly.  Remembering Tara saying that Spike had ended up begging her to end his undead life, silently wondering how far and how badly Tara had actually hurt him before killing him. 

 

“Sasha.”  Buffy growls softly and turns the woman to make her look at her.  “What’s wrong?” 

 

Sasha sighs.  “It is something I do not wish to mention yet, because I do not wish you to be mad at Tara.”

 

“I very rarely get mad at Tara.  When she takes stupid chances with her life, is usually when I get mad.”  Buffy admits, shaking her head at the thought of the witch.  “What did she do, and I’m assuming she’s worried about whatever she did pissing me off, too?”

 

“Ummm…”  Sasha shifts uncomfortably and looks into curious hazel eyes.  “She kind of explained about your personal life in more detail than what I already knew from my Watcher.”

 

Buffy furrows her brows and looks at the tall slayer in confusion, before shaking her head.  TARA!  Come in here, please!”  Buffy calls loudly, smirking as she hears the quiet ‘Oh shit’ coming from the living room. 

 

Sasha swallows and looks guiltily towards the doorway as Tara with Faith right on her heels make their way into the kitchen.  Tara, I did not mean…” 

 

“Whatever it is its okay, Sasha.”  Tara waves the tall slayer off, smiling at the woman. 

 

“She’s afraid of telling me whatever it is you two talked about, so I figured I’d cut out the middle man and just ask you.  You’ve always been up front and answered whatever questions are asked of you without a lot of bullshit, sooo… give.”  Buffy quirks an eyebrow at Tara and watches as Tara blushes lightly and looks away. 

 

“I told her more details about Angel and what happened back when he turned into Angelus.”  Tara starts, looking up at Buffy, seeing her nod her head and smile at her.  “I told her about Parker and Riley…”  Tara nibbles on her bottom lip as Buffy just looks at her but doesn’t say anything, silently telling her with a look to go on.  Sighing heavily, Tara straightens her back and stares at her friend.  “I also explained about Spike.”

 

Buffy blinks in surprise, not having expected that.  Staring intently at Tara for a few minutes, she dares a quick glance at Sasha who’s looking embarrassed before turning back to look at Tara, noticing the guilty and sad look on her face.  “All of it?”  Buffy finally questions softly, searching blue eyes seeing the answer in their depths.  “Well…  Why?”

 

“Honestly?”  Tara whispers, and at Buffy’s nod, she sighs heavily.  “I wanted to make sure she was worthy of your affections.  And if she couldn’t accept what happened…”  Tara shrugs and looks down at the ground, unconsciously leaning back against Faith as her lover wraps her arms around her waist and closes the short distance between them. 

 

Buffy sighs and rubs her forehead.  “You do realize I’m almost twenty-two years old and having people running interference for my love life is a little… odd?”

 

“B, it’s my fault.”  Faith speaks up, hugging Tara tightly as she feels her lover about to say something.  “I asked her to feel out Russky there.  So if ya’ wanna get mad or be upset with someone, it should be me.”

 

“I’m not mad.”  Buffy shakes her head and smiles softly at the slayer stepping in for Tara, the guilty look on Tara’s face letting her know that she took it further than what Faith had asked her to.  “Did you explain everything?”  Buffy steps up and reaches out to gently rub Tara’s shoulder.  “The…”  Buffy widens her eyes slightly, hoping Tara will know what she’s asking.

 

“The attempted rape?”  Tara questions softly to make sure that she’s understanding what Buffy’s asking.  At the slayer’s nod, she slowly nods her head.  “Basics, yes.”

 

“And did she get more of the story of what you did to him?”  Buffy questions curiously, her eyes narrowing on Tara.  Still never having gotten any details out of the witch as to exactly what she’d done to the vampire, though The First having enlightened both her and Faith as he pretended to be Spike. 

 

“No, not really.”  Tara grins crookedly and relaxes as Buffy growls and rolls her eyes at her, knowing she’s forgiven. 

 

“I hope you two gave her a good…”  Sasha growls softly as she thinks of the proper words.  “Ass chewing?”

 

“That’s perfect.”  Buffy lets Sasha know, chuckling as the slayer grins at her.  “And no.  I didn’t because right after I found out what she did, we ended up in a warehouse fighting something like twenty-five vampires and then Tara was almost dinner for Drusilla.”  Buffy watches as Tara’s hand unconsciously goes to her neck where there’s a pale scar.  “After everything that happened, I figured it wasn’t worth beating her up too badly about it.  Plus, I figured Faith put her two cents worth in, also.”

 

“I did.”  Faith tightens her grip on Tara, burying her face against her lover’s neck as she thinks about how close she’d come to losing the witch to the crazy vampire. 

 

“In all honesty, I think Drusilla was planning on turning me, not just making me dinner.”  Tara admits, her forehead wrinkling in thought as she strokes Faith’s arms soothingly.  “She made the comment that it had been a while since she’d had a female playmate or something along those lines.”

 

“Fuck me.”  Faith exhales the words softly, her eyes darting to Buffy.  “I wouldn’t have been able to take Tare out, B.  If she was ever turned, I don’t think…”  Faith shakes her head seeing the knowledge in Buffy’s eyes that she probably would have a hell of a time doing it, too. 

 

“You would do what you have to.”  Tara murmurs, rubbing Faith’s tense arms firmly while staring into hazel eyes.  “Both of you would do what you would have had to.  If not, you know the first people I would have come after would be you two.  And though I’ve never heard of a slayer being turned, if it’s possible, that’s probably what I would have done.”

 

“Even undead ya’ woulda wanted me with ya’?”  Faith smirks at the soft growl coming from Tara. 

 

“Always.”  Tara finally admits, smiling softly before winking at Buffy.  “You can kick my ass later for telling, Buffy.  But I just wanted to make sure there wouldn’t be any problems and…”

 

“That I would not drop you at finding out about you being with the…”  Sasha furrows her brows as she tries to remember what Tara called him.  “Peroxided bastard??”

 

Faith snorts and buries her face in her lover’s neck.  “I’m a bad influence, ain’t I?”

 

“Maybe.”  Tara chuckles and threads her fingers with Faith’s.  “You two need to eat.”  Tara winks and pushes backwards against Faith, chuckling softly as her lover growls playfully and picks her up to stride out of the kitchen.

 

Buffy smiles softly as the two women make their way out of the kitchen.

 

“They care for you very much.”  Sasha comments softly. 

 

“I’m lucky to have them.”  Buffy admits, chuckling.  “Even if they do like to irritate and aggravate me.  Faith also has a way of surprising me and making me own up to my own feelings.”

 

“They are good friends.  To have people care about you and watch out for you is a good thing.”

 

“Yes, it is.”  Buffy gently pats Sasha on the shoulder and pushes the plate towards her.  “Let’s eat before Tara comes back and kicks our butts.”

 

Gently cupping Buffy’s cheek, Sasha watches as the slayer tilts her head up to look at her questioningly.  “You are not mad at her, are you?”  Smiling as Buffy shakes her head, Sasha relaxes.  “That is a good thing.” 

 

Buffy moans softly as Sasha brushes her lips gently against hers in one of the most tender, gentlest kisses she’s ever known.  As Sasha steps back, Buffy slowly opens her eyes and looks into warm blue eyes of the softly smiling Russian.  Realizing she’s going to have to be careful around the tall woman, because there’s a good chance that she could fall in love with her.  And that wasn’t something she could allow herself at this time, and it definitely wasn’t something that they had agreed on.  “We should eat.”  Buffy takes a deep breath and turns towards the food, aware of the curious look that had come into the Russian’s eyes.

 

“Yes, we should eat.”  Sasha finally agrees as she watches Buffy place the food back in the microwave again, sighing quietly.

 

***

 

Chapter 31

 

“You’re doin’ good, Russky.”  Faith holds out her hand and helps the tall slayer up off the ground.

 

“Then why am I on my ass most often with you?”  Sasha grumbles good-naturedly. 

 

“Because she’s jealous of your height, so she figures if you’re on the ground…”  Tara speaks up, smirking as Faith glares at her.  Shrugging, Tara looks back down at the magic book she was searching through for anything that might help them in their fight against The First.

 

“Now, children…”  Faith turns and looks at the four potentials and rests her hands on her hips after growling softly at Tara, her lover ignoring her.  “What did I just show you?”

 

“That you can kick Sasha’s ass.”  Mandy speaks up, smirking.

 

Sasha groans and shakes her head.  “Yes, she showed you that.  But we are both slayers.  I am taller and bigger than her, so I should have been able to kick her ass.  I had more training growing up with a Watcher teaching me from when I was small.  She did not.  By all rights, I should have been the one standing over her.”  Sasha hesitantly tells the group as she mentally translates a few words into English, hoping she’s saying everything properly.

 

“Sasha, your English is fine.  The few odd words here and there aren’t that big of a deal, so you don’t have to think on it so hard.”  Tara comments softly as she looks up at the slayer, smiling. 

 

“I hate not talking properly.”  Sasha admits, looking at the witch.

 

Faith snorts.  “Listen ta’ me sometime, Russky.  You talk a hell of a lot better’n I do!”  Faith bangs her shoulder against the woman before turning her gaze back on the potentials who are seated on the edge of where she and Sasha had been sparring.  “Size don’t mean shit.  If ya’ know where ta’ hit someone, ya’ can bring them down quickly.  If you can’t beat them one on one, ya’ knock ‘em down and get the fuck outta dodge.  Our first rule is ta’ stay alive.  Now, Tracy pair up with Justine, I want ya’ to practice blocks and strikes takin’ turns.  Go slow and don’t actually make body contact.  B’ll have my ass if ya’ get hurt.  Lisa and Mandy, come over here with us.”

 

Sasha unconsciously turns her gaze towards the house, knowing Buffy and Willow are inside talking.  The redhead having softly questioned Buffy an hour ago if they could talk before the two had disappeared inside.  Shaking her head, she turns back to Faith and Lisa, Faith planning on stepping through different defenses with Lisa to help the youngest potential as she helps Mandy with her offensive attack.

 

***

 

“Damn it, Buffy!  Tell me what happened?  I overheard part of the conversation earlier while all of you were in the kitchen and I’d like to know what the hell happened while I was in England.”  Willow exasperatedly waves her hands around as she stares at her best friend.

 

Buffy runs a hand through her hair as she stares out the front screen door.  “You’ve had to deal with a lot since coming back from England, Willow.  Do you really think you want or can deal with everything else?”

 

“Christ, Buffy!  At one time we were best friends, now I feel like I barely know you.”  Willow glares at Buffy’s back.

 

Buffy snorts softly.  “Well, welcome to the club, Will.  Imagine my shock and surprise when I found out exactly what you had done to Tara.  The person I considered my best friend since Sophomore year would never have done the shit you did.”

 

Willow’s head jerks almost as if she’d received a physical slap.  “And yet you haven’t asked my side of the story.”

 

“Do I need to?”  Buffy turns to look at Willow, her eyes cold.  “Can you explain why you raped Tara’s mind?  Not once but twice?  Did you do it more than those two times, Willow?  Did you play around with anyone else’s mind?  The whole forget spell that everyone was under, who was it actually meant for?”

 

“I can’t believe you don’t trust me!”  Willow hisses after a few moments of shocked silence after Buffy finishes throwing the questions at her. 

 

“Willow, I love you like a sister.  We’ve been friends for seven years, but I have to tell you, I really don’t know you.  So you try to explain to me why you stole Tara’s memories from her.  Why you mentally raped your girlfriend… your everything.  Isn’t that what you called her?  Because honestly, I had to argue, beg and plead with Tara to explain why you two broke up and even then she really didn’t want to tell me.  But her explanation was that as far as she knew, the first time you two must have argued over magic usage and you did the forget spell.  The second time that backfired and everyone lost their memories was you trying to erase my memories of being brought back from heaven and the argument you’d had the night before about the fact Tara knew about your previous forget spell.  So, correct me if any of that is wrong.”  Buffy rattles off lowly and hotly, her anger at a slow burn.

 

Willow unconsciously steps back from the anger she hears in Buffy’s low voice.  “I… you… you wouldn’t understand.”  Willow shakes her head, her eyes wide as Buffy steps towards her. 

 

“Make me understand Willow.  Explain to me why you had to do the spells on her, why you tried to do the spell on both of us.”  Buffy stares at Willow, the redhead’s eyes dropping as she refuses to look at her and stares at the floor instead without saying anything for long minutes.  “You can’t can you, Willow?”  Buffy shakes her head as Willow glances up at her without saying a word.  “Did you learn anything while you were in England?  Do you not see what you did as wrong?  How if you had just been willing to originally work through things and get help that right now you and Tara would still be together?”  Buffy sighs as she sees Willow literally flinch hard at that comment.  “Maybe you do realize that.  I honestly didn’t expect this conversation to go this way, Willow.”  Buffy admits softly, turning to walk back towards the door, leaning against the frame as she looks outside.  “Then again, I wasn’t expecting you to practically attack me as soon as we were alone, either.”

 

Willow exhales softly, knowing the slayer is right.  She didn’t even give Buffy a chance before she’d lit into her, honestly feeling like a third wheel around the house as Buffy seemed to seek out Faith and Tara most often to talk to, the easy camaraderie between the three women hurting and making her jealous. 

 

“What do you want to know, Willow?”  Buffy finally questions, feeling a bone deep tiredness in her soul. 

 

“Everything, anything…”  Willow whispers, looking sadly at her friend.  “I’m sorry, Buffy.  I just feel… useless.  Like I’m not really needed and I’m just an extra appendage.  Things have changed so much in the time I’ve been gone.”

 

“A lot of things have changed, Willow.  A lot.”  Buffy finally turns and moves over to the chair, waving Willow to the couch.  “I guess I’ll work on giving you the Reader’s Digest version.”  Buffy sighs and tilts her head back on the chair and stares up at the ceiling, knowing she probably won’t be able to look at Willow for this conversation.  “I want you to try and keep from asking questions or commenting, Willow.  This is going to be hard enough to get through without being interrupted every few minutes, okay?”

 

Willow frowns at Buffy’s sad tones, before nodding realizing that the slayer can’t see her, she finally speaks up.  “I’ll try not to.”

 

“I guess that’ll do.”  Buffy has to smile sadly at the answer before slowly starting her tale.  “It actually started before I died… the second time.  I’d been feeling more and more disconnected.  Lost and useless.”  Buffy rubs a hand over her forehead.  “Then when I was brought back from Heaven, the disconnected feeling and lack of caring was a hundred times worse.  All I really wanted was to be back in Heaven, to where I was warm and at peace.  I couldn’t bring myself to admit to you guys where I had been until that whole fiasco with Sweet.  Anyway, Spike had been sniffing around, I think in some roundabout way he knew that I had been in Heaven…” 

 

Willow listens as Buffy slowly works through her relationship with Spike, fighting on interrupting the slayer a hundred times but forcing herself to continue to listen.  When Buffy admits to her going to Tara and asking the witch to look at the spell that had been used to bring her back, thinking that something was seriously wrong with her, and the subsequent breaking down on her lap after finding out that she was okay, Willow bites her lip hard enough to draw blood as tears come to her eyes. 

 

Buffy stops for a moment, her eyes blinking.  “Not long after you left for England, I was out patrolling.  Tara had come by to get Dawn and they went out for a late movie.  I’d gotten banged up, being thrown into a headstone.  I came home to an empty house and all I wanted was to take a hot relaxing bath to try and loosen my aching back.”  Buffy’s hands clench uncontrollably as she pictures it all again.  Her with her robe on checking the temperature of the water as Spike comes in trying to force himself on her, shoving her down, forcing her legs apart…  Shivering uncontrollably, Buffy whispers.  “Spike came into the house and up to the bathroom… he tried to show me he loved me.”  Buffy spits out the word loved before shaking her head.  “Basically he tried to rape me until I was finally able to fight him off.  He ended up leaving and not long after that Tara and Dawn came home.”

 

Willow feels the anger rising like a deadly cobra inside her at Buffy’s words.  The thought of the vampire touching Buffy was bad enough, but hearing how he tried to force himself on her best friend was making her see red. 

 

“Tara made Dawn go to bed then came to me in the bathroom.  She helped me bathe and get cleaned up before settling me in the bed and working some kind of ointments into my back to help with the soreness and aching.  She stayed with me until I fell asleep.  The next morning I woke up and she had a breakfast bake thing in the refrigerator for me, but she was gone.”  Buffy rubs a shaking hand over her eyes.  “I literally didn’t know until the day Tara was attacked by Drusilla what happened.”  Buffy finally makes eye contact with Willow.  “The reason Drusilla was in town was Tara.  She was pissed and looking for vengeance.  It seems Tara went after Spike that night and literally took him apart in pieces…  Through the rest of that night and the whole day afterwards she did unimaginable things to him… for me.  Because of what he attempted to do.”

 

Willow rears back against the couch, blinking hard in surprise and shock at the thought of Tara being violent and that angry to go after someone… well something.  “She wouldn’t have…”

 

Buffy stares at Willow and slowly nods.  “She wouldn’t tell either me or Faith exactly what she did.  But The First let us into some of what she did.  It seems he thought that it would cause problems or something.  Not that Faith and I weren’t both royally pissed at Tara taking unnecessary chances with her life, but…”  Buffy shakes her head and rubs a hand over her forehead. 

 

“But he had the chip…”  Willow starts before hazel eyes look up at her.

 

“No, he didn’t.  That was the first thing she did.  She removed his chip and gave him a chance.  Before she went after him, she called Angel.  Just in case she didn’t come out of it alive, she had Angel’s promise that he would come to Sunnydale and dust her if she didn’t call him.”  Buffy whispers softly.  “Even now, I don’t think Angel ever really questioned her about what she wanted him to do.  Or why, but he promised her he would come here if he was needed.”

 

“Goddess.”  Willow brushes a hand over her eyes at the thought of Tara going up against the master vampire.  Though obviously having come out of the fight alive it just seemed like such a non-Tara thing to do. 

 

Buffy trails her fingers over her sweat pants and blinks.  Tara helped me through everything.  She was here for me, talked with me and just let me… be me.”  Buffy admits smiling softly at the thought.  “And occasionally when I needed a good swift kick in the ass, she provided me with that, also.”

 

“And I would have probably done just the opposite.”  Willow finally sinks back against the couch and stares at Buffy.  “I would have either ignored it like I had been doing, hoping you would get better on your own, or I would have been accusatory and a bitch about what happened between you and Spike.”

 

Buffy slowly nods.  “That’s what I thought you would have probably done.  Faith was released from jail and asked to come here to help out with The First.  Though we didn’t know who the big bad was going to be at the time.  She was on her best behavior, helping out and doing patrols…”  Buffy smiles at the remembrance of how Faith had been so off kilter to begin with, and how the dark-haired slayer was actually expecting the worse. 

 

“And falling for Tara.”  Willow comments, bitterness obvious in her tones.

 

“Yes, falling in love with Tara.  As Tara was falling in love with her.”  Buffy stares at Willow.  “I flat out told Faith that if Tara was just another fuck, to leave her the hell alone.  That Tara isn’t that type of person.  When she loves someone, she loves them completely and she doesn’t sleep around.  They fought their immediate attraction for each other for over a month, Willow.  Even Dawn could see how attracted they were to each other.”  Seeing the hurt flash across Willow’s face, Buffy sighs quietly.  “No one did this to hurt you, Willow.  It just happened.  And you need to let it go.  Those two women love each other and no matter how much you wish it was otherwise, they’re not going to give each other up.”

 

Willow swallows and looks away, nodding her head in silent agreement.  “They’re just so easy with each other.  The way they can just reach out and touch or kiss…”  Remembering all the times Tara had reached out for a touch and how she’d been the one to limit their interactions in front of other people, feeling embarrassed and like they were being watched.  But other than the giggling potentials’ comments, and the indulgent smiles that she’s caught coming from both Buffy and Sasha at the way Faith and Tara acted, she doesn’t see any censorship whatsoever about their relationship. Sighing softly, Willow finally looks back at Buffy.  “What about you and Sasha?”

 

Hearing just the note of curiosity now in Willow’s voice, though there is a deep pain in the green eyes, knowing it’ll take a long time, if ever, for Willow to get over losing Tara, Buffy smiles softly.  “I like her.  I’m attracted to her, and the feelings are mutual.  I’m not saying I’m going to fall in love with her or vice-versa, but I want to see where this leads.  If I have a day, I have a day.  If it’s a month, it’s a month.  I was told recently that sometimes you just have to take life as it comes and enjoy what’s being offered without looking for anything more.  I’ve never done that before and I think…  No, I know, that I want to take what Sasha’s offering me, Willow.  I hope you understand and don’t think badly of me, but…”  Buffy shrugs, honestly at a loss as to what else to say. 

 

“I understand.  And no, I don’t think badly of you, Buffy.  She seems to be a very nice young woman.”  Willow smiles sadly as she watches the soft smile cross Buffy’s face.

 

“She is.  She also has a slayer’s stubbornness.”  Buffy chuckles softly at the thought before becoming serious.  “Things aren’t going to be all better with a blink of an eye, Willow.  But I think we’re on more even footing this go around.  And hopefully, given time, we’ll work back to a strong friendship again.  I don’t want you to get jealous of my talking with Faith and Tara.  They’ve kind of been here for me over the past months.  And believe it or not, Faith’s a lot smarter than she likes to let on.”  Buffy shakes her head at the thought of the dark-haired slayer.  “I should probably go outside and help with training.”

 

“And I should work on some more research… Buffy?”  Willow says the slayer’s name questioningly as Buffy stands and was halfway towards the kitchen.  Watching her friend stop and turn to look back at her.  Willow smiles sadly.  “I wish I’d been here to help you through everything.  But maybe it was best that I wasn’t.  Tara is a very nurturing, non-judgmental, loving woman and she honestly was probably the best person that you could have gone to.” 

 

Buffy watches as Willow turns to hurry up the stairs, sighing quietly.  “None of us will ever know exactly what might have happened if you’d stayed here instead of going to England, but we can’t change the past, and I believe that this may have been for the best.”  Buffy turns and makes her way to the back door, smiling at the sight of Sasha behind one of the younger potentials and her hands on top of Mandy’s as she shows her how to hold and swing the blade properly. 

 

“I’ll take whatever time we have together, Sasha.”  Buffy whispers softly as she watches the slayer step back and let Mandy and Lisa make contact with the swords as they practice their offensive and defensive movements.  When blue eyes lift almost as if she knew she was watching her, Buffy smiles and steps out the back door with no reservations, willing to let things go as they may.

 

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Chapter 32

 

Sasha steps outside the front door and moves down to sit on the steps in the late evening, darkness coming on quickly as it does at this time of the year.  Looking up and down the quiet neighborhood, she and Faith having come back to the house a little over an hour ago just in time for dinner.  Chuckling at the narrow-eyed gaze she and the rogue slayer had received from Tara when neither one would answer her question as to where they’d disappeared to.  Sasha laughs softly knowing that Faith will probably end up with her ass chewed out for disappearing without telling Tara where she’d gone.  Hearing the door open, Sasha glances over her shoulder and smiles softly as Buffy steps out.

 

“Care for company?”  Buffy asks before settling down beside the tall slayer at the smile she receives in response to her question.  Scooping up a spoonful of the cobbler and ice cream, Buffy chews it contemplatively as she watches Sasha while listening to the potentials arguing over what movie to watch while Tara’s upstairs trying to grill Faith on where she’d disappeared to.  “What did you guys get?”

 

“More like what did we not get!”  Sasha grins and leans back on her hands, stretching her feet down the steps and looks over at Buffy.  “We picked up one of those tanks to fill balloons with, balloons, streamers, cake, and other assorted party items.  We left the supplies across the street on the enclosed porch.”  Sasha tilts her chin towards the house she’s talking about. 

 

“She was a little bit irritated when she realized the two of you had disappeared without Faith telling her exactly where she was going.”  Buffy finishes her cobbler and ice cream, licking her lips as she sets the bowl off to the side.  “An irritated Tara isn’t fun to be around.  I’m just happy she didn’t get royally pissed.”

 

Sasha smiles at the thought.  “One day, I would wish to see her pissed.  Just to know what it is like.  She is usually so soft spoken and kind, though I see the fire in her eyes when she is angry or Willow does something to set her off.  When the Rogue Slayer irritates her, it is more like a… an indulgent aggravation that crosses her face.”

 

“That’s because she knows Faith’s usually doing it to get a rise out of her, rather than actually screwing up.”  Buffy shifts and moves closer to the taller slayer, keeping eye contact with Sasha.  A small smile playing across the tall slayer’s lips as she watches her maneuver closer making Buffy chuckle softly.

 

Sasha slowly raises an eyebrow at the small slayer as Buffy shifts until she’s straddling her hips, her butt lightly settling onto her thighs.  Her eyes closing as she inhales sharply as strong, small hands caress slowly up her abdomen to come to a stop cupping her breasts, thumbs trailing teasingly over her hard nipples.

 

“God, you’re so sensitive.”  Buffy whispers hoarsely, her eyes on the woman’s chest, the nipples hardening instantly while poking insistently against the t-shirt.  Continuing to tease the hard flesh with her thumbs, she watches Sasha’s chest start to rise and fall faster with her breathing.  The smell of arousal becoming stronger by the minute, Buffy inhales deeply of the delicious scent. 

 

“Ma petite…”  Sasha whimpers as Buffy starts to pinch and twist her nipples insistently.  Pushing upwards, Sasha captures Buffy’s lips, tongue eagerly looking for entrance, dancing with Buffy’s tongue when it’s granted.

 

Groaning and arching as warm hands caress strongly over her back, thumbs working their way from the side to caress against the starting swell of her breasts, Buffy breaks off the kiss, panting heavily as she drags her eyes open to look into heated blue eyes.  Watching in confusion as the desire-filled blue eyes quickly become cold and gray, it takes a moment to realize that Sasha isn’t looking at her anymore but directly over her shoulder.  Closing her eyes as she hears the voice, Buffy counts to ten before easing away from Sasha.

 

“We need to talk.”  Angel’s eyes narrow on the two women as he strides up to the bottom of the steps.

 

Buffy eyes The First, finally having confirmation that the be-spelled beads work, the light red haze floating around him the giveaway.  “What are you doing here, Angel?  I thought you had your own problems that you were dealing with in LA.”  Buffy gently squeezes Sasha’s shoulder.  “Why don’t you go into the house?  I’ll be in later.”

 

Sasha silently stands and brushes off the back of her jeans, her eyes on The First obviously impersonating Buffy’s first lover.  “If you need me…”

 

“I will.”  Buffy pats her arm as Sasha spins around and strides quickly into the house leaving her alone with The First.  Everyone having agreed that it might be beneficial to act like they don’t know its The First unless he actually let’s himself be found out, or they physically try to reach for him.  “What do you want?”  Buffy steps down watching as The First backs away to keep distance between them, fighting the smile that wants to cross her face. 

 

“We researched all the archives at Wolfram and Hart, there’s no way to defeat The First.  If there was, we would have found it.”  The First tucks his hands in his pockets as he stares at Buffy.  “I still love you, Buffy.  Don’t die in this useless fight.  Come back with me to Los Angeles and let him do whatever it is he’s wanting to.”

 

“You had to come here to tell me this?  You couldn’t have used the phone?”  Buffy purses her lips as she looks at The First, having to admit he does a damn good job of looking like Angel.  Of course, when he impersonated her it had Tara and Faith fooled. 

 

“The phones are down.”  The First gives Buffy a disgruntled look.  Finally lifting his eyes towards the house, he crosses his arms and gives his best broody/hurt look at the slayer.  “What’s going on with you and the young woman, Buffy?  Couldn’t get over me so you decided to go to women for a change?”

 

Buffy snorts and quirks an eyebrow at Angel.  “Have a problem with it, Angel?  After all, Spike told me all about his Grandsire and how much of a bastard he was.  Angelus likes playing with the boys but not Angel?”  Buffy smirks as she sees The First’s façade shimmer for a second as he obviously loses control.  Turning her back quickly so he doesn’t see her smirk she paces back and forth, before turning a glare on ‘Angel’.  “Am I supposed to just wait around for you to get over the whole being dead thing, Angel?  We’ve been over with for four years, I’ve moved on.  Last I heard you were fighting your attraction to Cordelia.”

 

“I don’t love her.  I love you.”  The First tries to backtrack, wondering if he might have blown it when he almost lost control, though the hazel eyes looking at him seem sincere enough with the sad look.

 

“We’re finished, Angel.  She may not be my next big love, but I like her, she likes me and we’re exploring the whole like angle.”  Rocking back and forth on her feet she looks at The First for a few moments, watching the calculating look briefly go through his eyes as he tries to figure out what to do or say to irritate her. 

 

“Is she a potential, Buffy?  I mean, how old is she?”  The First tries to push a little to see what he can shake loose.

 

“Does it really matter?  She’s old enough, Angel.  She’s of legal, consenting age, and you know as well as I do the people we have here in the house.”  Buffy looks over her shoulder as she hears the door open somewhat surprised to see Tara stepping out of the house.  Maybe having expected Faith, but not Tara. 

 

“Hi, Angel.”  Tara nods her head towards The First before looking back at Buffy.  “Sweetie, I just wanted to tell you, Sue’s in a bit of a snit.”  Tara vaguely stresses the name Sue, just in case The First knows the name Sasha and that the woman was a slayer.  “I think she’s jealous and possibly even hurt about…”  Tara looks obviously over at The First, watching as a smile crosses his face before the brooding look drops back in place. 

 

“I’ll be back in, in a few minutes.”  Buffy nods, having caught the change of expression out of the corner of her eye.  Watching Tara step back into the house with a quick smile at her, Buffy isn’t surprised when The First starts speaking again as soon as Tara disappears inside.

 

“What kind of girlfriend is she, Buffy?  I mean, if she’s already jealous of me just showing up here, isn’t that a clue that she’s going to just get in the way?”  The First looks at the house before turning back to Buffy.  “You were never one to deal with jealousy and the whole clingy-ness well.” 

 

Buffy shrugs and narrows her eyes on The First.  “She’s… okay.”  Buffy tries to sound uncertain, knowing that he’s just trying to sew disharmony in the ranks but not falling for it.

 

“I better head back to LA.”  The First looks sadly at Buffy.  “Remember, I love you.”

 

Buffy just nods her head and turns around dejectedly and slowly makes her way up the steps, shifting her head just enough to look behind her as ‘Angel’ strides away.  “Fucking idiot.  Doesn’t have a clue.”  Buffy chuckles softly as she steps in the door, a huge grin crossing her face.  “They work!  Is there some way of getting the information to one of the Coven’s to let everyone else know?”

 

“Already on it.”  Willow waves a spell book around as she and Tara try to find something to make the phone work magically for a few minutes.   

 

“You okay, B?”  Faith questions, just to make sure though Buffy seems fine.  Actually Buffy seems extremely, almost giddily, happy.

 

“Hell, yes!  The mojo beads here work on detecting that it’s The First.  And he’s just trying to make me not trust… Sue?”  Buffy quirks an eyebrow questioningly at Tara then Sasha. 

 

“My idea.”  Tara admits, waving a hand around as she continues to look at the book she’s researching in.  “Sasha was actually hurt pretty badly when the Bringers attacked her and her Watcher in Russia.  As far as he’s probably aware, she died.  That’s one of the reasons it took her so long to get here.  Plus the fact I’m not real positive he’s aware of her status of slayer-hood, but I didn’t want to chance it since that’s probably the main reason she lived through the attack.  Her slayer healing was one of the first things that seemed to activate completely when she was triggered.”

 

Buffy blinks in surprise, not having known that.  Turning her gaze on Sasha, she watches the tall Russian smile almost shyly at her.  “Why didn’t you tell me?”

 

“We have not talked a lot, Buffy.  Me and Terror discussed you to begin with when we were together, then while we were shopping and on the way back, she wanted to learn about me and how I made it here.”  Sasha shrugs as she smiles at the slayer.  “It is not a big deal.”

 

“Yes it is.”  Buffy frowns heavily, realizing that she just knows basics about the tall slayer, but not any real details about her life before coming to Sunnydale.  “We need to get back to the talking bit.”  Buffy grumbles, before looking up at the deep laughter coming from the tall slayer.  Seeing the merriment dancing in the blue eyes, Buffy realizes that every time they ‘needed to talk’ she ended up practically pouncing on the other woman. 

 

“I like the way you talk, ma petite.  Would you like to finish the conversation you started earlier?”  Sasha smiles sexily at the small blonde slayer. 

 

Faith snorts as she comes back through from the kitchen, having checked around back and the side of the house to make sure they didn’t have any unexpected company.  “B, if ya’ want I’ll do lookout tonight.  I got a feelin’ the witch-y contingent is gonna be on a serious research mission.”  Faith smiles in understanding as Tara’s head jerks up to look at her guiltily. 

 

“I’m sorry, love.  I’ll owe you.”  Tara whispers very softly, knowing the only people that should be able to hear her are the slayers. 

 

Faith winks and nods her head in acceptance of the apology.  “It happens, why don’t you…”  Faith starts only to watch as the other two slayers tear up the stairs.  Snorting at the sight of Buffy hot on Sasha’s heels, swearing she caught a glimpse of a hand heading somewhere naughty.  Smirking at the thought, she turns back to look into amused blue eyes coming back to rest on her.  Not able to resist, Faith strides over to Tara and brushes a firm kiss over her lips.  “I love you.” 

 

“I love you, too, honey.”  Tara reaches up to tuck brown hair behind Faith’s ear, grinning crookedly up at her lover, she winks.  “No teasing them from outside, Faith.”

 

“Shit!”  Faith grumbles as she leans back, pouting at Tara.  “How did ya’ know…”  Trailing off at the knowing grin crossing Tara’s lips, she sighs heavily.  “Damn witch.”  Faith stomps over to the weapon’s chest and pulls out a large knife and a short sword before making her way towards the door.  “Come out and visit me in a little while?” 

 

“I will.”  Tara smiles lovingly at Faith as the slayer hesitates at the door before stepping out onto the front porch.  Knowing her lover will keep to a slow walk around the house, listening and trying to feel anything that might try and attack.

 

Willow looks up unobtrusively glancing from Tara to Faith and back again as the two women talk, the conversation obviously taking place on more than just the surface level.  Feeling a streak of jealousy and heartache shoot through her at the ease the two women interact with each other.  What really hurts, though, is the absolutely loving look Tara gives Faith as the slayer hesitates by the front door looking at the witch before stepping out, never having been on the receiving end of that exact look.  Shy, sweet, caring and loving looks, yes.  But never the completely open and trusting look of love that Tara just gave to Faith… Willow drops her eyes to the floor before closing them in pain as she finally remembers that she did used to receive that look.  When she and Tara were first together, but over time the completely open trusting look gave way to hurt, worry and a degree of wariness.  Sighing as a deep sadness works through her at the realization that she has really and truly lost Tara for good finally works through her, Willow turns back to the book she’s searching through, fighting the tears that want to come to her eyes.  Quickly excusing herself, she picks up the book and strides towards the dining room.

 

Tara’s eyebrows furrow as she looks back at Willow after Faith steps out, seeing the tears about ready to fall from the redhead’s green eyes and the obvious look of resignation on Willow’s face, a streak of sadness going through her at the realization that Willow finally understands that she isn’t coming back to her.  “Sorry, Willow.”  Tara whispers before turning back to the book after a quick glance at the potentials quickly looking back at the television.  Smirking at the sight, she continues her researching.

 

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